Saturday, April 09, 2011
♥ The new thing in town..
Currently I am into baking. I bake and the taste is kind of good according to those who have tasted my cakes. One thing that I have yet to master is the decorating part. As I am not talented in arts, it takes time and LOADS of practice.
I have noticed that nowadays, people are so into MACAROONS. I was really curious of the hassle about those colourful eye catching dessert. So yesterday, I got a chance to grab some to taste. As I predicted, I don't fancy the taste. It's a bit too sweet to my liking. But people have their own preferences. Maybe one day I'd like to make my own macaroons because the colours are sooo tempting!
Well, we'll just wait and see.
I have noticed that nowadays, people are so into MACAROONS. I was really curious of the hassle about those colourful eye catching dessert. So yesterday, I got a chance to grab some to taste. As I predicted, I don't fancy the taste. It's a bit too sweet to my liking. But people have their own preferences. Maybe one day I'd like to make my own macaroons because the colours are sooo tempting!
Well, we'll just wait and see.
Labels: Attractions, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, April 07, 2011
♥ It's been a while...
Knowing me in the world of blogging, I RARELY update my blog weekly or monthly let alone daily. Have I grown out of my own hobby or there is no more drive of passion? I can't answer that. I also have observed the 'disappearance' of the bloggers that I usually have to stop by every single day reading their ramblings and thoughts as if they are like my daily newspaper. Names like JavardKent, the late Emy(I grew close with her in the virtual world and never got to meet her in person), Laydiefa (she rarely writes now and a few others that I can't recall.
Maybe my writing is not as interesting but actually this blog is only for me letting out steam when I am under stress or to share my feelings with others that will not judge me. It is an open media for anyone to read and either agree or disagree with the ramblings let out.
I know that I have change and age factor is one of the factors influencing the lack of writings in here but people always change. That is the fact of life. Bestfriends can become enemies in a blink of an eye. That is how it is. However bitter it may be, but that is the truth.
I am just hoping for the best yet to come.
Maybe my writing is not as interesting but actually this blog is only for me letting out steam when I am under stress or to share my feelings with others that will not judge me. It is an open media for anyone to read and either agree or disagree with the ramblings let out.
I know that I have change and age factor is one of the factors influencing the lack of writings in here but people always change. That is the fact of life. Bestfriends can become enemies in a blink of an eye. That is how it is. However bitter it may be, but that is the truth.
I am just hoping for the best yet to come.
Labels: Life, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Sunday, November 07, 2010
♥ Lelaki Ini...
Got this from Chic's blog. So I said to myself. why not. Here goes.
Instructions:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
Anuar Zain - I'm The Lucky One
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
NB - Kau Pergi
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
6th Sense - Tanpa
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Siti Nurhaliza - Biarlah Rahsia (haha.. nailed it)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bau - Warkah
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Rossa - Pudar
WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Faizal Tahir - Sampai Syurga (Alhamdulillah..)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
ST12 - P.U.S.P.A. - which stands for Putuskan Saja Pacarmu (err..)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Lady Gaga - Speechless (hehe.. out of words I guess)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Carrie Underwood - I Told You So
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Sting - Dalam Diam Ku Mencintaimu
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BESTFRIEND?
Iklim - Bunga Emas (nahh.. not worth it)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Katy Perry - Thinking of You
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Afgan - Terima Kasih Cinta
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Taylor Swift - Tied Together With a Smile (hahaha... nice picture here)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Taylor Swift - A Perfectly Good Heart
WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Chris Daughtry - No Surprise
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Adam - Jatuh
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You (hahaha.. a good and weird hobby)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Dewa - Hadapi dengan Senyuman
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Rossa - Tak Termiliki
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Kerispatih - Bila Rasaku Ini Rasamu
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You
WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Rossa - Aku Bukan Untukmu (errr..)
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Katy Perry - If You Can Afford Me
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Exist - Alasanmu
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Colbie Caillat - Fallin for You
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Taylor Swift - Cold As You
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Westlife - If I Let You Go
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ungu - Demi Waktu
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Taylor Swift - Love Story
WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO SAY TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU?
Taylor Swift - Should've Said No (hehehe.. she didn't tag me but I volunteered)
WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?
Anuar Zain - Lelaki Ini (very eye catching title)
It was just merely for fun. Wanted to know what songs would come out. And most of it were Malay songs and Taylor Swift. Hehehe
Instructions:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
Anuar Zain - I'm The Lucky One
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
NB - Kau Pergi
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
6th Sense - Tanpa
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Siti Nurhaliza - Biarlah Rahsia (haha.. nailed it)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bau - Warkah
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Rossa - Pudar
WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Faizal Tahir - Sampai Syurga (Alhamdulillah..)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
ST12 - P.U.S.P.A. - which stands for Putuskan Saja Pacarmu (err..)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Lady Gaga - Speechless (hehe.. out of words I guess)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Carrie Underwood - I Told You So
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Sting - Dalam Diam Ku Mencintaimu
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BESTFRIEND?
Iklim - Bunga Emas (nahh.. not worth it)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Katy Perry - Thinking of You
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Afgan - Terima Kasih Cinta
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Taylor Swift - Tied Together With a Smile (hahaha... nice picture here)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Taylor Swift - A Perfectly Good Heart
WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Chris Daughtry - No Surprise
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Adam - Jatuh
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Secondhand Serenade - Fall for You (hahaha.. a good and weird hobby)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Dewa - Hadapi dengan Senyuman
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Rossa - Tak Termiliki
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Kerispatih - Bila Rasaku Ini Rasamu
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You
WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Rossa - Aku Bukan Untukmu (errr..)
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Katy Perry - If You Can Afford Me
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Exist - Alasanmu
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Colbie Caillat - Fallin for You
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Taylor Swift - Cold As You
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Westlife - If I Let You Go
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ungu - Demi Waktu
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Taylor Swift - Love Story
WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO SAY TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU?
Taylor Swift - Should've Said No (hehehe.. she didn't tag me but I volunteered)
WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?
Anuar Zain - Lelaki Ini (very eye catching title)
It was just merely for fun. Wanted to know what songs would come out. And most of it were Malay songs and Taylor Swift. Hehehe
Labels: Random ramblings, Songs
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, October 25, 2010
♥ Sepi (Loneliness)..
I have watched Sepi a dozen of times and the film never fails to make me cry especially the ending of Sufi's story. I don't know why, but it kind of touches my heart in a way that I can relate to the story. As if it is a part of my life.
One part of the dialogue that I like is the part where Sufi (played by Tony Eusoff) says to Marya (played by Eja) - kenapa dalam beribu orang di dunia kita dipilih untuk bertemu tetapi tidak untuk bersama? (why is that in the thousands of people in the world, we are chosen to meet but not destined to be together?). It keeps me wondering the wonders of the world and why God chooses some people to meet just for the sake of meeting new people and fall in love with others. And it also keeps me wondering when will I find the person that I am destined to be together. But I truly know that He knows what's best.
Anyway, I really love the poetry in the play that Sein recites.
Bisikku pada bulan (I whisper to the moon)
Kembalikan temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku (Return me my friend, my lover, my heaven)
Tanpa dia malam menemaniku (Without her, the night accompanies me)
Sepi memelukku (Loneliness envelopes me)
Bulan jangan biar siang (O moon, don't turn the night into day)
Biar alam ini kelam (Let the world be blurred)
Biar ia sepi (Let it be lonely)
Sepertiku (Like me)
One part of the dialogue that I like is the part where Sufi (played by Tony Eusoff) says to Marya (played by Eja) - kenapa dalam beribu orang di dunia kita dipilih untuk bertemu tetapi tidak untuk bersama? (why is that in the thousands of people in the world, we are chosen to meet but not destined to be together?). It keeps me wondering the wonders of the world and why God chooses some people to meet just for the sake of meeting new people and fall in love with others. And it also keeps me wondering when will I find the person that I am destined to be together. But I truly know that He knows what's best.
Anyway, I really love the poetry in the play that Sein recites.
Bisikku pada bulan (I whisper to the moon)
Kembalikan temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku (Return me my friend, my lover, my heaven)
Tanpa dia malam menemaniku (Without her, the night accompanies me)
Sepi memelukku (Loneliness envelopes me)
Bulan jangan biar siang (O moon, don't turn the night into day)
Biar alam ini kelam (Let the world be blurred)
Biar ia sepi (Let it be lonely)
Sepertiku (Like me)
Labels: Life, Movies, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, October 22, 2010
♥ Stress effects...
This is what I hate about stress. These couple of days (more like a week plus) have been stressful - in terms of work and personal life. I have been known (to myself that is) to overindulge in food to find comfort when having been stressed out. And guess what? I have gained a couple of kilos which took me weeks (nearly months) to shed! I hate this feeling!
I kind of noticed it when my body does not want to function efficiently as before after that first incident. And guess I was right!
Urgghh.. come to think about it, I hate myself for being weak. Will have to cope with it sooner or later. Better be soon.
I kind of noticed it when my body does not want to function efficiently as before after that first incident. And guess I was right!
Urgghh.. come to think about it, I hate myself for being weak. Will have to cope with it sooner or later. Better be soon.
Labels: Life, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
♥ Using your rage to something good...
I know that my last entry is about me feeling tired. I still am. After that entry, I went to the usual place doing the usual thing and bumped into the person I've been feeling tired of. And guess what? Upon seeing me approach, that person just stopped the usual activity and went off! I mean abruptly and not planned beforehand. And it looked like that person stopped because of me! The thing that I don't understand is that I've done NOTHING wrong and have actually done NOTHING at all. But it seems that that person is pissed or have something against me.
The attitude kind of got into me and made me feel angry and very frustrated. I mean, REALLY frustrated! And I was swearing under my breath and felt the urge to kick and punch that person! I wished that the person was in front of me so I could do those things - kick and punch that person. But unfortunately that person was not there. In the end, because of feeling full of rage and fury, I kind of built this strength and did what I usually do with full of energy. And letting the steam out like that feels so damn good. And I felt relieved instantly. But I did cry myself to sleep that night wondering why do I feel guilty if I didn't do anything wrong? And after releasing the rage and fury plus shed a few tears (buckets actually, but thinking about it now, it wasn't worth it), I slept like a log!
The main point is, if you have any feelings that you would like to let go, go do something that you like. the unwanted feelings (especially rage and fury and tension) will make you stronger and push you to the limit. and you'll absolutely feel better instantly.
The attitude kind of got into me and made me feel angry and very frustrated. I mean, REALLY frustrated! And I was swearing under my breath and felt the urge to kick and punch that person! I wished that the person was in front of me so I could do those things - kick and punch that person. But unfortunately that person was not there. In the end, because of feeling full of rage and fury, I kind of built this strength and did what I usually do with full of energy. And letting the steam out like that feels so damn good. And I felt relieved instantly. But I did cry myself to sleep that night wondering why do I feel guilty if I didn't do anything wrong? And after releasing the rage and fury plus shed a few tears (buckets actually, but thinking about it now, it wasn't worth it), I slept like a log!
The main point is, if you have any feelings that you would like to let go, go do something that you like. the unwanted feelings (especially rage and fury and tension) will make you stronger and push you to the limit. and you'll absolutely feel better instantly.
Labels: Life, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, October 18, 2010
♥ I am tired...
I've always been very optimistic when it comes to feelings. Lately I noticed that I kind of turned to be a stalker without any intention. Well, yes in my heart, I want to be noticed. And I kind of have this feeling that sometimes things or the behavior portrayed is as if trying to make me notice it. But as I know my own self better, I have put it aside. Getting my hopes soaring high and then it vanishes in thin air, making me fall and hit rock bottom is extremely painful. That is why I seldom let myself get too deep in feelings. And that is also why some people will say that I look very 'fierce' and serious.
These couple of weeks, I have kind of developed the uneasy feeling again. And I kind of felt like I turned into a stalker. But thinking about it back, not all the time. I mean, accidentally I found out things. Not that I was desperately looking for it. It just came into the picture as if knowing about my feelings. It felt like I was destined to find those things.
But now, I just feel worse. And I am blaming myself for this feeling. What I can say is that I am tired. Just plain TIRED.
Tired of waiting.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of hoping.
Tired of wishing.
I am leaving it all to what fate has destined for me.
This matter is just as Coldplay's Fix You -
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
These couple of weeks, I have kind of developed the uneasy feeling again. And I kind of felt like I turned into a stalker. But thinking about it back, not all the time. I mean, accidentally I found out things. Not that I was desperately looking for it. It just came into the picture as if knowing about my feelings. It felt like I was destined to find those things.
But now, I just feel worse. And I am blaming myself for this feeling. What I can say is that I am tired. Just plain TIRED.
Tired of waiting.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of hoping.
Tired of wishing.
I am leaving it all to what fate has destined for me.
This matter is just as Coldplay's Fix You -
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Labels: Life, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, October 07, 2010
♥ Grinning from ear to ear...
You know when it comes to motivation, sometimes we need another person or something to motivate us. And I never thought that I'd find it in trying t achieve my dreams. It all started the first day. At first I was REALLY conscious with my own self. Having really low self-esteem sometimes really affects the way I feel. Especially in large crowds. Even though the crowd at that time was not that large, but I can feel my body being poked from stares and glares.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
Labels: Crushes, Life, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010
♥ The celebration of Eid Ul Fitri 2010
It's been sometime (again) since I've last posted something in my blog. Maybe the lack of entries might not be relevant since I know that not many (maybe close to none) read my blog. It's just a 'dump' to release the tension.
Ramadhan has left us. And will we be able to get the chance to meet again? Wallahu'alam. Only He knows. Have I fulfilled the chance given? Frankly speaking, I don't think so. Only a couple of things that I managed to do constantly. Oh how I do wish that I will be given the chance to meet Ramadhan again next year - Insya-Allah.
For the celebration of Eid this year, I feel as though I have outgrown the excitement of it. The only thing I love is the hassle of cooking the delicacies and spring cleaning the house (there's still clutters here and there but I have no power to throw them away - that is left to the Mam in the house). I still remember last 2 years having celebrating the Eid outside of Malaysia. The first time was fun even though the 'feel' was not there with the takbir and I had to rush to class. But yet, it was fun. The second time, was more relaxed. Since the duty there has been completed, it was more relaxed. But those years, on the eve of Eid, I was not busy in the kitchen. It was like a normal day. I did cook though since me and my housemate wanted to entertain Malaysian friends (the single ones) at our invited-only open house. Hahaha.. and during the Eid gathering, I was assigned to cook too.
Usually, during the preparation of Eid delicacies, I would just be the assistant chef to my mom. She would be the one doing the cooking. But this year, she decided to rest and let me prepare the dishes myself. She wasn't feeling well on the eve of Eid. And the best part is that she trusted me in preparing the traditional dishes!!
The spirit of Eid in me was kind of missing. But because it has become accustomed to me, I felt that it felt right doing what I usually do. Usually the night before Eid, I'd be up washing the kitchen floor until really late (usually until 4 am). But this year, I managed to get all done before 2 am (I did skip the washing the kitchen floor and just mopped it since it was still clean from the previous wash).
Even though everything was settled ahead of time compared to previous years, I was exhausted and only went to be at 3 am. Woke up for Subuh prayers and wanted to just doze a bit before the Eid prayers. But guess what? I kind of went completely back to sleep until 8.15am! And the Eid prayers was due at 8.30 am! Dang! I missed the Eid prayers.
This year's Eid celebration was a bit different from previous years since now I have a very cheeky little nephew and an adorable niece. I also drove to Malacca (my mom's hometown) which usually my dad does after the Friday prayers and drove back home after Maghrib. I was indeed exhausted since after arriving, I went straight to bed (I actually intended to take a shower first, but due to exhaustion, I just climbed into my bed).
There.. a bit about my Eid celebration. This year, as usual, I took pictures of my uncle's family and my brother's family. Oh.. suddenly I remembered that I did not take any pictures of myself, my mum and dad this year. Well, maybe some other day though.
Selamat Hari Raya to all!!!
Ramadhan has left us. And will we be able to get the chance to meet again? Wallahu'alam. Only He knows. Have I fulfilled the chance given? Frankly speaking, I don't think so. Only a couple of things that I managed to do constantly. Oh how I do wish that I will be given the chance to meet Ramadhan again next year - Insya-Allah.
For the celebration of Eid this year, I feel as though I have outgrown the excitement of it. The only thing I love is the hassle of cooking the delicacies and spring cleaning the house (there's still clutters here and there but I have no power to throw them away - that is left to the Mam in the house). I still remember last 2 years having celebrating the Eid outside of Malaysia. The first time was fun even though the 'feel' was not there with the takbir and I had to rush to class. But yet, it was fun. The second time, was more relaxed. Since the duty there has been completed, it was more relaxed. But those years, on the eve of Eid, I was not busy in the kitchen. It was like a normal day. I did cook though since me and my housemate wanted to entertain Malaysian friends (the single ones) at our invited-only open house. Hahaha.. and during the Eid gathering, I was assigned to cook too.
Usually, during the preparation of Eid delicacies, I would just be the assistant chef to my mom. She would be the one doing the cooking. But this year, she decided to rest and let me prepare the dishes myself. She wasn't feeling well on the eve of Eid. And the best part is that she trusted me in preparing the traditional dishes!!
The spirit of Eid in me was kind of missing. But because it has become accustomed to me, I felt that it felt right doing what I usually do. Usually the night before Eid, I'd be up washing the kitchen floor until really late (usually until 4 am). But this year, I managed to get all done before 2 am (I did skip the washing the kitchen floor and just mopped it since it was still clean from the previous wash).
Even though everything was settled ahead of time compared to previous years, I was exhausted and only went to be at 3 am. Woke up for Subuh prayers and wanted to just doze a bit before the Eid prayers. But guess what? I kind of went completely back to sleep until 8.15am! And the Eid prayers was due at 8.30 am! Dang! I missed the Eid prayers.
This year's Eid celebration was a bit different from previous years since now I have a very cheeky little nephew and an adorable niece. I also drove to Malacca (my mom's hometown) which usually my dad does after the Friday prayers and drove back home after Maghrib. I was indeed exhausted since after arriving, I went straight to bed (I actually intended to take a shower first, but due to exhaustion, I just climbed into my bed).
There.. a bit about my Eid celebration. This year, as usual, I took pictures of my uncle's family and my brother's family. Oh.. suddenly I remembered that I did not take any pictures of myself, my mum and dad this year. Well, maybe some other day though.
Selamat Hari Raya to all!!!
Labels: family, Life, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
♥ Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah for all the countless blessings bestowed upon me. I have finished what I started earlier and am TREMENDOUSLY happy with the results.
Last week, I flew way up to the UK again to officially receive the certificate marking my work for the past year (even though at first I was a bit reluctant and there was something behind it. I'll blog about it in a different entry) . I always prayed that I could have the chance to meet with 'Mr. Snow' again since I did not have much time with him the last time. And guess what, my prayers were answered. The first day landing in Amsterdam, there it was. In front on my eyes, the airport was blanketed in white. Pure white. Even though I was just there on transit, the scenery was breathtaking. Imagine me from Malaysia with the cotton thin clothing, arriving in Amsterdam at -8 degrees. Brrr.. went to the ladies to put on my thermal clothing + jumper + coat. The thing is that the flight to Humberside does not use the aerotunnel (whatever it is called - the thingy to board the aircraft from the departure gate) since the plane is a small focker and will need the passengers to use the bus provided to reach the aircraft. It was a bit cold indeed but I found the weather somewhat familiar.. hahaha..
Arrived in Hull and left my bags at a friend's house and went straight to town. First thing's first = SHOPPING. Hahaha.. nah.. just wanted to kill time and exhaust myself to make sure that I get enough sleep that night to ensure a fresh me the next day. And I did sleep like a log that night!
Woke up feeling fresh and excited. Got ready and walked to the university. Felt like I was still studying there. Only the dressing is a bit different today since usually I'd be wearing jeans. Was expecting to take tonnes of photos, but no one is familiar with my camera. :-( . In the end, only a few shots were captured. None of them in the hall. And after the ceremony, I had to attend another simple ceremony but my friends went to grab lunch with my camera. Huhu.. met other people, but again, no photos captured to cherish the memories. Only today, I remembered that I should have snapped pics using my phone. Too late!
The second day there, it started snowing again. Wuhuuu!! And after my friend's session, we went straight to London. And guess what? It was snowing!! Again!! The following morning, boarded a plane to Nice. The first day, brought my friend to Monaco. That night, my youngest brother joined us for dinner. The second day in Nice, we actually wanted to go skiing. But I wasn't feeling that well. We changed plans and went to Cannes and Grasse instead. And guess what, it was snowing AGAIN!!
After the trip to France, we stayed in London for 2 nights. And when it came to going back to Hull, it snowed!! In Hull, not London. The last night, before heading back to Malaysia for good, we put a night in Amsterdam. Got to visit the Red Light District! Strange enough, halal food was everywhere on that part of Amsterdam! Actually we kind of accidentally found it in search of halal food. Don't worry, I am still innocent. Still consider myself underage for that sort of thing. Hahaha..
Anyway, all in all, it was a splendid journey. Wish I could make it a yearly event or just permanently reside in the UK. Haha.. how I wish i could do that.
Last week, I flew way up to the UK again to officially receive the certificate marking my work for the past year (even though at first I was a bit reluctant and there was something behind it. I'll blog about it in a different entry) . I always prayed that I could have the chance to meet with 'Mr. Snow' again since I did not have much time with him the last time. And guess what, my prayers were answered. The first day landing in Amsterdam, there it was. In front on my eyes, the airport was blanketed in white. Pure white. Even though I was just there on transit, the scenery was breathtaking. Imagine me from Malaysia with the cotton thin clothing, arriving in Amsterdam at -8 degrees. Brrr.. went to the ladies to put on my thermal clothing + jumper + coat. The thing is that the flight to Humberside does not use the aerotunnel (whatever it is called - the thingy to board the aircraft from the departure gate) since the plane is a small focker and will need the passengers to use the bus provided to reach the aircraft. It was a bit cold indeed but I found the weather somewhat familiar.. hahaha..
Arrived in Hull and left my bags at a friend's house and went straight to town. First thing's first = SHOPPING. Hahaha.. nah.. just wanted to kill time and exhaust myself to make sure that I get enough sleep that night to ensure a fresh me the next day. And I did sleep like a log that night!
Woke up feeling fresh and excited. Got ready and walked to the university. Felt like I was still studying there. Only the dressing is a bit different today since usually I'd be wearing jeans. Was expecting to take tonnes of photos, but no one is familiar with my camera. :-( . In the end, only a few shots were captured. None of them in the hall. And after the ceremony, I had to attend another simple ceremony but my friends went to grab lunch with my camera. Huhu.. met other people, but again, no photos captured to cherish the memories. Only today, I remembered that I should have snapped pics using my phone. Too late!
The second day there, it started snowing again. Wuhuuu!! And after my friend's session, we went straight to London. And guess what? It was snowing!! Again!! The following morning, boarded a plane to Nice. The first day, brought my friend to Monaco. That night, my youngest brother joined us for dinner. The second day in Nice, we actually wanted to go skiing. But I wasn't feeling that well. We changed plans and went to Cannes and Grasse instead. And guess what, it was snowing AGAIN!!
After the trip to France, we stayed in London for 2 nights. And when it came to going back to Hull, it snowed!! In Hull, not London. The last night, before heading back to Malaysia for good, we put a night in Amsterdam. Got to visit the Red Light District! Strange enough, halal food was everywhere on that part of Amsterdam! Actually we kind of accidentally found it in search of halal food. Don't worry, I am still innocent. Still consider myself underage for that sort of thing. Hahaha..
Anyway, all in all, it was a splendid journey. Wish I could make it a yearly event or just permanently reside in the UK. Haha.. how I wish i could do that.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
♥ You know you are a workaholic when...
1. You are bored to DEATH when you have no work to do.
2. You dream about your boss almost every single day.
3. You have no time to eat, drink or even go to the loo during office hours.
4. You never realize the time. You only realize it when the office is quiet and the
last person going back tells you that the person is leaving.
5. Your annual leave is always being carried forward for next year or you apply for
leave just to do your work without any interruption.
6. You find yourself happy during workdays and lonely during weekends.
Most of the symptoms mentioned above is what I feel like. So, there, I admit that I AM A WORKAHOLIC!
2. You dream about your boss almost every single day.
3. You have no time to eat, drink or even go to the loo during office hours.
4. You never realize the time. You only realize it when the office is quiet and the
last person going back tells you that the person is leaving.
5. Your annual leave is always being carried forward for next year or you apply for
leave just to do your work without any interruption.
6. You find yourself happy during workdays and lonely during weekends.
Most of the symptoms mentioned above is what I feel like. So, there, I admit that I AM A WORKAHOLIC!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
♥ It has been 3 weeks...
Wooaa.. it's already the 3rd week of 2010. How time flies. It has also been the third month for me after coming back here. And next week, I'll report duty in my new department. Eager? I guess.. Looking forward to it?? Maybe.. At least I hope that I don't have to wait for work. Anyway, will be flying back to UK Tuesday next week for my graduation ceremony. Meaning that I will only be in my new office for 2 days before my 2 week break to the UK. Haha
Anyway, I have no excited feeling to fly back. But I know that I wanted to attend the ceremony and maybe travel a bit. But That feeling has vanished. Don't know what to expect and don't know what to feel. Hahaha.. Happy? Excited? Thrilled to meet my friends? Or looking forward to meet 'Winter' again? I don't really know. It feels different in a way. It doesn't feel like the time I first went there.
Anyway, hoping for the best and hope I'll enjoy the trip (better do so because the trip itself costs a FORTUNE!)
Anyway, I have no excited feeling to fly back. But I know that I wanted to attend the ceremony and maybe travel a bit. But That feeling has vanished. Don't know what to expect and don't know what to feel. Hahaha.. Happy? Excited? Thrilled to meet my friends? Or looking forward to meet 'Winter' again? I don't really know. It feels different in a way. It doesn't feel like the time I first went there.
Anyway, hoping for the best and hope I'll enjoy the trip (better do so because the trip itself costs a FORTUNE!)
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, December 11, 2009
♥ I hate this part right here...
I have nothing much to say nor elaborate. Just that I have this feeling that I hate. Really extremely hate. Something done that cannot be undone but can be learned from in the future. Think before doing it AGAIN in the future, because I hate this part right here.
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Thursday, December 03, 2009
♥ It's been a while...
It's been a while since I've last written here. A year to be exact. I was actually contemplating whether to continue writing or just delete this blog. But I don't think that I can do the latter. I still do think that my previous entries are too childish. But hey, it's my blog. And I can see that I have grown up now (as if).
Alhamdulillah, my absence for the year has been a successful journey in life for me. And I have accomplished what I have been searching for (well, maybe in one aspect though). Maybe I'll continue the journey one fine day.
So, should I or shouldn't I delete this blog? Naah.. I think I'll just continue on a different note, a new fresh look (even though it does seem a bit depressing, but I like it) and maybe hopefully happy entries. Till then, enjoy your day!
*Currently listening to I'd Come for You - Nickelback
Alhamdulillah, my absence for the year has been a successful journey in life for me. And I have accomplished what I have been searching for (well, maybe in one aspect though). Maybe I'll continue the journey one fine day.
So, should I or shouldn't I delete this blog? Naah.. I think I'll just continue on a different note, a new fresh look (even though it does seem a bit depressing, but I like it) and maybe hopefully happy entries. Till then, enjoy your day!
*Currently listening to I'd Come for You - Nickelback
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
♥ Alhamdulillah...
Alhamdulillah I have reached my destination in one piece and without any trouble. Though I had to find my way to the final destination, I had no trouble at all. People were helpful enough helping me.
It all started in Ramadhan last year when Education@UK had their annual exhibition in Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre. I went browsing through several universities gathering information regarding courses offered and other useful information I might need. Back then, I thought the timing was way ahead. And it was the 17th of Ramadhan that I did all those things.
In December, I had to attend a course to prepare myself to the academic world. Being the ONLY administrator, I felt a bit out of place. With no knowledge at all about research and preparing a proposal PLUS defending the proposal, I was one of the weakest participant. I kind of freaked out. But the organizer told me not to worry since I'll be enrolled in a program in coursework mode. That kind of eased my worries.
Early this year, I started to apply universities. And remember the course that I went to which I could not finish the jungle tracking and I NEARLY fainted on top of the hill? That was another compulsory course taken for the final destination.
So after all the events, I thought I had plenty of time preparing myself for the departure, only to find that I was wrong! I cannot imagine a friend of mine who did almost every other thing except the preparation course to the academic world in the same time I did, and the others, only to be completed in July! She had to report on the 1st of September! I, myself with all the others done, took about 6 months to settle everything else kind of took the breath out of me!
Anyway, I arrived this morning and took a cab, finding my way in this new country and environment after somewhat having a miscommunication with people here. Well, at least I felt very confident and independent doing things alone in a foreign environment. What an achievement for me. Hurrah!! Luckily my new housemate was at home and not on-call. So, I arrived at the doorstep, with one suitcase, one hand luggage and one laptop, knocking on the door. She greeted me and I stepped in the new house that I'll be staying for the year.
Here I am, all alone tonight and being jet-lagged, I need time to adjust my biological clock for the time now in Malaysia is way past my bedtime that is 4.50am and sahur time, where as the local time here is only 9.45 pm.
I promise you that I'll post up pictures of my new place as soon as I get the chance to snap the pics. I wanted to do it today, as I arrived but a friend back home told me not to. It'll be that I am too eager to do that and I have a year to take them. Oh well, what can you say if your hobby evolves around photography right?
Cheers!
It all started in Ramadhan last year when Education@UK had their annual exhibition in Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre. I went browsing through several universities gathering information regarding courses offered and other useful information I might need. Back then, I thought the timing was way ahead. And it was the 17th of Ramadhan that I did all those things.
In December, I had to attend a course to prepare myself to the academic world. Being the ONLY administrator, I felt a bit out of place. With no knowledge at all about research and preparing a proposal PLUS defending the proposal, I was one of the weakest participant. I kind of freaked out. But the organizer told me not to worry since I'll be enrolled in a program in coursework mode. That kind of eased my worries.
Early this year, I started to apply universities. And remember the course that I went to which I could not finish the jungle tracking and I NEARLY fainted on top of the hill? That was another compulsory course taken for the final destination.
So after all the events, I thought I had plenty of time preparing myself for the departure, only to find that I was wrong! I cannot imagine a friend of mine who did almost every other thing except the preparation course to the academic world in the same time I did, and the others, only to be completed in July! She had to report on the 1st of September! I, myself with all the others done, took about 6 months to settle everything else kind of took the breath out of me!
Anyway, I arrived this morning and took a cab, finding my way in this new country and environment after somewhat having a miscommunication with people here. Well, at least I felt very confident and independent doing things alone in a foreign environment. What an achievement for me. Hurrah!! Luckily my new housemate was at home and not on-call. So, I arrived at the doorstep, with one suitcase, one hand luggage and one laptop, knocking on the door. She greeted me and I stepped in the new house that I'll be staying for the year.
Here I am, all alone tonight and being jet-lagged, I need time to adjust my biological clock for the time now in Malaysia is way past my bedtime that is 4.50am and sahur time, where as the local time here is only 9.45 pm.
I promise you that I'll post up pictures of my new place as soon as I get the chance to snap the pics. I wanted to do it today, as I arrived but a friend back home told me not to. It'll be that I am too eager to do that and I have a year to take them. Oh well, what can you say if your hobby evolves around photography right?
Cheers!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
♥ A little bit of this, a little bit of that...
Work has been keeping me busy to the max. I have had no time to update, nor to even enjoy my daily doses of blog reading (except that I'd find time squeezing one or two entries that I can't miss during lunch break). Having saying that, I guess I have pushed the limit of my body. I am aching all over and currently down with a cold and a fever.
I have also been neglecting my diet and my meals which in result, having me crave for the wrong type of food - junk food and fast food. And I have been putting on a couple of pounds, which luckily came off after fasting for the whole week!
Okay enough of what has happened in the past few weeks. It's just that I have been looking forward for my holiday this week (7 days - which starts this Tuesday - yippie!)and with this cold, am I going to enjoy it or will it effect my holiday? I hope not.
If you're wondering where I'll be heading to, all I can say is shopping heaven and more shopping in Southeast Asia!! I'll be heading alone and I hope that all will be okay. But one thing is that, I'm worrying about getting to LCCT at 4.30 am! My flight is at 7, and since I'll be going alone, getting a cab kind of freaks me out. But I'll just leave it to Allah to look over me.
Oh.. does anyone care to give me a lift? ;-)
I have also been neglecting my diet and my meals which in result, having me crave for the wrong type of food - junk food and fast food. And I have been putting on a couple of pounds, which luckily came off after fasting for the whole week!
Okay enough of what has happened in the past few weeks. It's just that I have been looking forward for my holiday this week (7 days - which starts this Tuesday - yippie!)and with this cold, am I going to enjoy it or will it effect my holiday? I hope not.
If you're wondering where I'll be heading to, all I can say is shopping heaven and more shopping in Southeast Asia!! I'll be heading alone and I hope that all will be okay. But one thing is that, I'm worrying about getting to LCCT at 4.30 am! My flight is at 7, and since I'll be going alone, getting a cab kind of freaks me out. But I'll just leave it to Allah to look over me.
Oh.. does anyone care to give me a lift? ;-)
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, May 09, 2008
♥ Oh Please!!!!
I was driving to work this morning and as I was changing radio stations due to one of my favourite channel was having adverts, I came across the Fly.fm fix it. The story was about best friends for 5 years, not being best friends anymore due to the fact that the guy has found a new girlfriend. I missed the first part and as Phat Fabes and Ben said that the end of the first part, the girl-best friend asked the guy, 'Do you love me?'. And guess what? The guy said yes!And the girl said that she was also in love with him.
Come on man. During 5 years of being best friends, you just kept the feelings to yourselves? The question asked by me was asked by Phat Fabes. And they said it was complicated since the girl at that time had a boyfriend, which she broke up with and by that time, the guy found his current girlfriend.
And at the end of fix it, Phat Fabes and Ben said that they will have to back off because it is a bit personal. But I don't get the lady. She said that she IS willing to be there FOR HIM if his relationship fails. But you know what he said when asked by the DJs? He said he does not know what to do. He does not want to break the relationship with his girlfriend.
Oh my goodness, I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I totally disagree with what she says. I mean, there is no point in waiting for him if he himself shows no response at all. People should know by heart what and who they want to be with.
Well, it is now all up to her.
Come on man. During 5 years of being best friends, you just kept the feelings to yourselves? The question asked by me was asked by Phat Fabes. And they said it was complicated since the girl at that time had a boyfriend, which she broke up with and by that time, the guy found his current girlfriend.
And at the end of fix it, Phat Fabes and Ben said that they will have to back off because it is a bit personal. But I don't get the lady. She said that she IS willing to be there FOR HIM if his relationship fails. But you know what he said when asked by the DJs? He said he does not know what to do. He does not want to break the relationship with his girlfriend.
Oh my goodness, I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I totally disagree with what she says. I mean, there is no point in waiting for him if he himself shows no response at all. People should know by heart what and who they want to be with.
Well, it is now all up to her.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
♥ Ahhh.. finally...
I have been under stress lately and under a lot of pressure. But finally, yesterday, all of it has ended. Actually, the biggest part, not all though. Anyway, at least part of the burden has been lifted.
Furthermore, I am looking forward for next week. I'll be shopping and travelling again! Yippie!! Shopping splurge in Bandung from the 12th and coming back to Malaysia on th 15th just to change the set of clothing for the next trip on the 16th to 22nd May to Medan on official matters. At least I won't be in the office. Hurrah!!
Have a splendid week guys!!
Furthermore, I am looking forward for next week. I'll be shopping and travelling again! Yippie!! Shopping splurge in Bandung from the 12th and coming back to Malaysia on th 15th just to change the set of clothing for the next trip on the 16th to 22nd May to Medan on official matters. At least I won't be in the office. Hurrah!!
Have a splendid week guys!!
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
♥ Butterflies in my stomach..
It has been a hectic week, no, month for me. A lot has to be done and I am burried in tonnes of work. To organize a trip for my own self has been put aside.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
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Monday, March 31, 2008
♥ I left my heart in Indonesia... (Cintaku Tertinggal di Indonesia..)
Have you listened to the song by Dewa - Cintaku Tertinggal di Malaysia? Mine is the other way around. I left my heart in Indonesia. No, this is not the first time I've been there. But this is the 3rd time.
A spectacular view from Restoran Sederhana, Padang
I was there for approximately 2 weeks on an official visit. And I found that I left my heart there once I boarded the plane heading back to Malaysia *sigh*.
A spectacular view from Restoran Sederhana, Padang
I was there for approximately 2 weeks on an official visit. And I found that I left my heart there once I boarded the plane heading back to Malaysia *sigh*.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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