Thursday, October 07, 2010
♥ Grinning from ear to ear...
You know when it comes to motivation, sometimes we need another person or something to motivate us. And I never thought that I'd find it in trying t achieve my dreams. It all started the first day. At first I was REALLY conscious with my own self. Having really low self-esteem sometimes really affects the way I feel. Especially in large crowds. Even though the crowd at that time was not that large, but I can feel my body being poked from stares and glares.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, December 11, 2009
♥ I hate this part right here...
I have nothing much to say nor elaborate. Just that I have this feeling that I hate. Really extremely hate. Something done that cannot be undone but can be learned from in the future. Think before doing it AGAIN in the future, because I hate this part right here.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
♥ Butterflies in my stomach..
It has been a hectic week, no, month for me. A lot has to be done and I am burried in tonnes of work. To organize a trip for my own self has been put aside.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
Labels: Attractions, Crushes, Miscellaneous, Random ramblings
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Saturday, August 11, 2007
♥ A Special Dedication for A Special Person...
11th of August 2007. A special day to be remembered.
I fell in 'a trance' on the first day I saw you. And I couldn't believe it that you were enrolling in the PhD program since you looked so young and boyish. But it's true. And that boyish face and smile made my heart melt each and every time I saw you.
My colleagues were very sporting knowing that I fancied you and they would always find ways to make me entertain your matters. But it was very seldom. Either I was very busy or had no time.
So today IS the day.
Congratulations on being awarded the Doctor of Philosophy degree today. You have worked hard and deserve the degree at a young age. And the best part is that the convocation ceremony this year (especially for PhD graduates) falls on your birthday. Two big events in one day! How lucky!
Congratulations again and happy birthday Dr. Teruaki Yoshida!! Hope to see you again one day.
I fell in 'a trance' on the first day I saw you. And I couldn't believe it that you were enrolling in the PhD program since you looked so young and boyish. But it's true. And that boyish face and smile made my heart melt each and every time I saw you.
My colleagues were very sporting knowing that I fancied you and they would always find ways to make me entertain your matters. But it was very seldom. Either I was very busy or had no time.
So today IS the day.
Congratulations on being awarded the Doctor of Philosophy degree today. You have worked hard and deserve the degree at a young age. And the best part is that the convocation ceremony this year (especially for PhD graduates) falls on your birthday. Two big events in one day! How lucky!
Congratulations again and happy birthday Dr. Teruaki Yoshida!! Hope to see you again one day.
Labels: Attractions, Crushes, Friends, Tribute
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
♥ Torn Between 2 Crushes
It's the time of the year where couples shower their loved one's with 'unconditional' love. And I think that this entry would be a bit mushy and lovey-dovey type. So those who hate the mushy lovey-dovey entry, I'd advice you to stop here. But I think that you're going to miss this once of a lifetime reading this type of entry.
Remember my entry about What Women Want? I can say that I have found the criteria I'd like in my soulmate and partner in life. I have seen that I love Sham's character in the first few episodes. Sham is like a version of a hero and really takes care of his girl but doesn't show his romantic side. He doesn't know how to be affectionate towards women but when he does show it even if it seems silly, it is cute and it does seem sincere.
Another plus point for Sham is because of his physique. He makes me feel secured - well actually I am just 'dreaming' being with him. And in my dreams, I do feel safe and secured.
Hafiz never really caught my attention the first few episodes. His naiveness kind of irritated me in one episode when he had to play against Carliff to determine the 'weakest' player in the team to face the jury. He was like being the too kind-hearted. But peopple started noticing him when he started to win most of the tasks. And being only one of the two contestants speaking in Malay in this show really gave him some extra airtime. And another plus point for him is his kind heart and him being down-to-earth. His sincere friendship does not make others hate him, but love him more. Just a downside when he lets his emotions interfere with his judgement. But in the show, I don't see that as a negative point but an advantage since this is about what women want.
We can see his sincerity in his actions and makes his eyes twinkle. He has the persona of what women seek in a man.
Anyway, the third crush is about Darius, a character in Dunia Baru in the second season. His character was played by Iqram Dinzly. He has the looks and really knows how to play the character as if it was his own personality. I have seen him playing other roles in Cinta Medik aired on Thursdays 8.30 pm at TV9. A bit naïve and nerdy compared to Darius in Dunia Baru. Which by the way confuses me - am I attracted to Iqram Dinzly personally or just Darius, the role he played?
Dr. Gregory House is another crush of mine. The way he speaks, the cynical remarks and blunt accusations attract me in a way. His appearance as a 'rough' and 'tough' guy with an unshaven beard is really tempting. And the same question that has been playing in my mind here - am I attracted to Dr. House or Laurie in person?
See? I am not just torn between 2 crushes but 4!
*p/s: I am really hoping that Hafiz will be the winner for What Women Want but at the same time I wish Sham would also win it. Any one of these two who would win this title of What Women Want would really make my day. Good luck Sham and Hafiz.
Sexy eyes.
Remember my entry about What Women Want? I can say that I have found the criteria I'd like in my soulmate and partner in life. I have seen that I love Sham's character in the first few episodes. Sham is like a version of a hero and really takes care of his girl but doesn't show his romantic side. He doesn't know how to be affectionate towards women but when he does show it even if it seems silly, it is cute and it does seem sincere.
Another plus point for Sham is because of his physique. He makes me feel secured - well actually I am just 'dreaming' being with him. And in my dreams, I do feel safe and secured.
Sweet and sincere. Simply irresistable.
Hafiz never really caught my attention the first few episodes. His naiveness kind of irritated me in one episode when he had to play against Carliff to determine the 'weakest' player in the team to face the jury. He was like being the too kind-hearted. But peopple started noticing him when he started to win most of the tasks. And being only one of the two contestants speaking in Malay in this show really gave him some extra airtime. And another plus point for him is his kind heart and him being down-to-earth. His sincere friendship does not make others hate him, but love him more. Just a downside when he lets his emotions interfere with his judgement. But in the show, I don't see that as a negative point but an advantage since this is about what women want.
We can see his sincerity in his actions and makes his eyes twinkle. He has the persona of what women seek in a man.
Me? Oh my God! I think I am going to faint!
Anyway, the third crush is about Darius, a character in Dunia Baru in the second season. His character was played by Iqram Dinzly. He has the looks and really knows how to play the character as if it was his own personality. I have seen him playing other roles in Cinta Medik aired on Thursdays 8.30 pm at TV9. A bit naïve and nerdy compared to Darius in Dunia Baru. Which by the way confuses me - am I attracted to Iqram Dinzly personally or just Darius, the role he played?
Sexy eyes.. gorgeous!
Dr. Gregory House is another crush of mine. The way he speaks, the cynical remarks and blunt accusations attract me in a way. His appearance as a 'rough' and 'tough' guy with an unshaven beard is really tempting. And the same question that has been playing in my mind here - am I attracted to Dr. House or Laurie in person?
See? I am not just torn between 2 crushes but 4!
Who shall it be?
*p/s: I am really hoping that Hafiz will be the winner for What Women Want but at the same time I wish Sham would also win it. Any one of these two who would win this title of What Women Want would really make my day. Good luck Sham and Hafiz.
Pics are from http://www.coliseum-suits.com/charles/ , http://www.hughlaurie.co.uk/ and my own gallery.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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