Saturday, April 09, 2011
♥ The new thing in town..
Currently I am into baking. I bake and the taste is kind of good according to those who have tasted my cakes. One thing that I have yet to master is the decorating part. As I am not talented in arts, it takes time and LOADS of practice.
I have noticed that nowadays, people are so into MACAROONS. I was really curious of the hassle about those colourful eye catching dessert. So yesterday, I got a chance to grab some to taste. As I predicted, I don't fancy the taste. It's a bit too sweet to my liking. But people have their own preferences. Maybe one day I'd like to make my own macaroons because the colours are sooo tempting!
Well, we'll just wait and see.
I have noticed that nowadays, people are so into MACAROONS. I was really curious of the hassle about those colourful eye catching dessert. So yesterday, I got a chance to grab some to taste. As I predicted, I don't fancy the taste. It's a bit too sweet to my liking. But people have their own preferences. Maybe one day I'd like to make my own macaroons because the colours are sooo tempting!
Well, we'll just wait and see.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, April 07, 2011
♥ It's been a while...
Knowing me in the world of blogging, I RARELY update my blog weekly or monthly let alone daily. Have I grown out of my own hobby or there is no more drive of passion? I can't answer that. I also have observed the 'disappearance' of the bloggers that I usually have to stop by every single day reading their ramblings and thoughts as if they are like my daily newspaper. Names like JavardKent, the late Emy(I grew close with her in the virtual world and never got to meet her in person), Laydiefa (she rarely writes now and a few others that I can't recall.
Maybe my writing is not as interesting but actually this blog is only for me letting out steam when I am under stress or to share my feelings with others that will not judge me. It is an open media for anyone to read and either agree or disagree with the ramblings let out.
I know that I have change and age factor is one of the factors influencing the lack of writings in here but people always change. That is the fact of life. Bestfriends can become enemies in a blink of an eye. That is how it is. However bitter it may be, but that is the truth.
I am just hoping for the best yet to come.
Maybe my writing is not as interesting but actually this blog is only for me letting out steam when I am under stress or to share my feelings with others that will not judge me. It is an open media for anyone to read and either agree or disagree with the ramblings let out.
I know that I have change and age factor is one of the factors influencing the lack of writings in here but people always change. That is the fact of life. Bestfriends can become enemies in a blink of an eye. That is how it is. However bitter it may be, but that is the truth.
I am just hoping for the best yet to come.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
♥ Using your rage to something good...
I know that my last entry is about me feeling tired. I still am. After that entry, I went to the usual place doing the usual thing and bumped into the person I've been feeling tired of. And guess what? Upon seeing me approach, that person just stopped the usual activity and went off! I mean abruptly and not planned beforehand. And it looked like that person stopped because of me! The thing that I don't understand is that I've done NOTHING wrong and have actually done NOTHING at all. But it seems that that person is pissed or have something against me.
The attitude kind of got into me and made me feel angry and very frustrated. I mean, REALLY frustrated! And I was swearing under my breath and felt the urge to kick and punch that person! I wished that the person was in front of me so I could do those things - kick and punch that person. But unfortunately that person was not there. In the end, because of feeling full of rage and fury, I kind of built this strength and did what I usually do with full of energy. And letting the steam out like that feels so damn good. And I felt relieved instantly. But I did cry myself to sleep that night wondering why do I feel guilty if I didn't do anything wrong? And after releasing the rage and fury plus shed a few tears (buckets actually, but thinking about it now, it wasn't worth it), I slept like a log!
The main point is, if you have any feelings that you would like to let go, go do something that you like. the unwanted feelings (especially rage and fury and tension) will make you stronger and push you to the limit. and you'll absolutely feel better instantly.
The attitude kind of got into me and made me feel angry and very frustrated. I mean, REALLY frustrated! And I was swearing under my breath and felt the urge to kick and punch that person! I wished that the person was in front of me so I could do those things - kick and punch that person. But unfortunately that person was not there. In the end, because of feeling full of rage and fury, I kind of built this strength and did what I usually do with full of energy. And letting the steam out like that feels so damn good. And I felt relieved instantly. But I did cry myself to sleep that night wondering why do I feel guilty if I didn't do anything wrong? And after releasing the rage and fury plus shed a few tears (buckets actually, but thinking about it now, it wasn't worth it), I slept like a log!
The main point is, if you have any feelings that you would like to let go, go do something that you like. the unwanted feelings (especially rage and fury and tension) will make you stronger and push you to the limit. and you'll absolutely feel better instantly.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, October 18, 2010
♥ I am tired...
I've always been very optimistic when it comes to feelings. Lately I noticed that I kind of turned to be a stalker without any intention. Well, yes in my heart, I want to be noticed. And I kind of have this feeling that sometimes things or the behavior portrayed is as if trying to make me notice it. But as I know my own self better, I have put it aside. Getting my hopes soaring high and then it vanishes in thin air, making me fall and hit rock bottom is extremely painful. That is why I seldom let myself get too deep in feelings. And that is also why some people will say that I look very 'fierce' and serious.
These couple of weeks, I have kind of developed the uneasy feeling again. And I kind of felt like I turned into a stalker. But thinking about it back, not all the time. I mean, accidentally I found out things. Not that I was desperately looking for it. It just came into the picture as if knowing about my feelings. It felt like I was destined to find those things.
But now, I just feel worse. And I am blaming myself for this feeling. What I can say is that I am tired. Just plain TIRED.
Tired of waiting.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of hoping.
Tired of wishing.
I am leaving it all to what fate has destined for me.
This matter is just as Coldplay's Fix You -
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
These couple of weeks, I have kind of developed the uneasy feeling again. And I kind of felt like I turned into a stalker. But thinking about it back, not all the time. I mean, accidentally I found out things. Not that I was desperately looking for it. It just came into the picture as if knowing about my feelings. It felt like I was destined to find those things.
But now, I just feel worse. And I am blaming myself for this feeling. What I can say is that I am tired. Just plain TIRED.
Tired of waiting.
Tired of wanting.
Tired of hoping.
Tired of wishing.
I am leaving it all to what fate has destined for me.
This matter is just as Coldplay's Fix You -
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, October 07, 2010
♥ Grinning from ear to ear...
You know when it comes to motivation, sometimes we need another person or something to motivate us. And I never thought that I'd find it in trying t achieve my dreams. It all started the first day. At first I was REALLY conscious with my own self. Having really low self-esteem sometimes really affects the way I feel. Especially in large crowds. Even though the crowd at that time was not that large, but I can feel my body being poked from stares and glares.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
But one thing is that even I can feel the stares and glares, my eyes kind of landed at this particular person. The stares given by this person feels like penetrating into my skin right to the bone. But it has a kind of filter - this charm or aura kind of soften it.
I continued doing what I have to do and found out that the person is a regular. Never had the guts to smile or even glance let alone talk to the person. The only thing that I am brave enough to do is stare the person from a far and glancing once in a while to the person's car.
The good thing was that I was looking forward to do what I aim for and just because of the person. I even told a friend of mine and she insisted that I talk to that person. Even a 'hi' is enough. But I don't have the guts to do so.
Eventually, the day arrived. On the 5th of October, as I was doing what I usually do, that person smiled AND we started talking! Even it was just a sentence, but at least that is something.
And with that particular incident, it made me grin from ear to ear until today. Thank you sooo much **D4*.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010
♥ The celebration of Eid Ul Fitri 2010
It's been sometime (again) since I've last posted something in my blog. Maybe the lack of entries might not be relevant since I know that not many (maybe close to none) read my blog. It's just a 'dump' to release the tension.
Ramadhan has left us. And will we be able to get the chance to meet again? Wallahu'alam. Only He knows. Have I fulfilled the chance given? Frankly speaking, I don't think so. Only a couple of things that I managed to do constantly. Oh how I do wish that I will be given the chance to meet Ramadhan again next year - Insya-Allah.
For the celebration of Eid this year, I feel as though I have outgrown the excitement of it. The only thing I love is the hassle of cooking the delicacies and spring cleaning the house (there's still clutters here and there but I have no power to throw them away - that is left to the Mam in the house). I still remember last 2 years having celebrating the Eid outside of Malaysia. The first time was fun even though the 'feel' was not there with the takbir and I had to rush to class. But yet, it was fun. The second time, was more relaxed. Since the duty there has been completed, it was more relaxed. But those years, on the eve of Eid, I was not busy in the kitchen. It was like a normal day. I did cook though since me and my housemate wanted to entertain Malaysian friends (the single ones) at our invited-only open house. Hahaha.. and during the Eid gathering, I was assigned to cook too.
Usually, during the preparation of Eid delicacies, I would just be the assistant chef to my mom. She would be the one doing the cooking. But this year, she decided to rest and let me prepare the dishes myself. She wasn't feeling well on the eve of Eid. And the best part is that she trusted me in preparing the traditional dishes!!
The spirit of Eid in me was kind of missing. But because it has become accustomed to me, I felt that it felt right doing what I usually do. Usually the night before Eid, I'd be up washing the kitchen floor until really late (usually until 4 am). But this year, I managed to get all done before 2 am (I did skip the washing the kitchen floor and just mopped it since it was still clean from the previous wash).
Even though everything was settled ahead of time compared to previous years, I was exhausted and only went to be at 3 am. Woke up for Subuh prayers and wanted to just doze a bit before the Eid prayers. But guess what? I kind of went completely back to sleep until 8.15am! And the Eid prayers was due at 8.30 am! Dang! I missed the Eid prayers.
This year's Eid celebration was a bit different from previous years since now I have a very cheeky little nephew and an adorable niece. I also drove to Malacca (my mom's hometown) which usually my dad does after the Friday prayers and drove back home after Maghrib. I was indeed exhausted since after arriving, I went straight to bed (I actually intended to take a shower first, but due to exhaustion, I just climbed into my bed).
There.. a bit about my Eid celebration. This year, as usual, I took pictures of my uncle's family and my brother's family. Oh.. suddenly I remembered that I did not take any pictures of myself, my mum and dad this year. Well, maybe some other day though.
Selamat Hari Raya to all!!!
Ramadhan has left us. And will we be able to get the chance to meet again? Wallahu'alam. Only He knows. Have I fulfilled the chance given? Frankly speaking, I don't think so. Only a couple of things that I managed to do constantly. Oh how I do wish that I will be given the chance to meet Ramadhan again next year - Insya-Allah.
For the celebration of Eid this year, I feel as though I have outgrown the excitement of it. The only thing I love is the hassle of cooking the delicacies and spring cleaning the house (there's still clutters here and there but I have no power to throw them away - that is left to the Mam in the house). I still remember last 2 years having celebrating the Eid outside of Malaysia. The first time was fun even though the 'feel' was not there with the takbir and I had to rush to class. But yet, it was fun. The second time, was more relaxed. Since the duty there has been completed, it was more relaxed. But those years, on the eve of Eid, I was not busy in the kitchen. It was like a normal day. I did cook though since me and my housemate wanted to entertain Malaysian friends (the single ones) at our invited-only open house. Hahaha.. and during the Eid gathering, I was assigned to cook too.
Usually, during the preparation of Eid delicacies, I would just be the assistant chef to my mom. She would be the one doing the cooking. But this year, she decided to rest and let me prepare the dishes myself. She wasn't feeling well on the eve of Eid. And the best part is that she trusted me in preparing the traditional dishes!!
The spirit of Eid in me was kind of missing. But because it has become accustomed to me, I felt that it felt right doing what I usually do. Usually the night before Eid, I'd be up washing the kitchen floor until really late (usually until 4 am). But this year, I managed to get all done before 2 am (I did skip the washing the kitchen floor and just mopped it since it was still clean from the previous wash).
Even though everything was settled ahead of time compared to previous years, I was exhausted and only went to be at 3 am. Woke up for Subuh prayers and wanted to just doze a bit before the Eid prayers. But guess what? I kind of went completely back to sleep until 8.15am! And the Eid prayers was due at 8.30 am! Dang! I missed the Eid prayers.
This year's Eid celebration was a bit different from previous years since now I have a very cheeky little nephew and an adorable niece. I also drove to Malacca (my mom's hometown) which usually my dad does after the Friday prayers and drove back home after Maghrib. I was indeed exhausted since after arriving, I went straight to bed (I actually intended to take a shower first, but due to exhaustion, I just climbed into my bed).
There.. a bit about my Eid celebration. This year, as usual, I took pictures of my uncle's family and my brother's family. Oh.. suddenly I remembered that I did not take any pictures of myself, my mum and dad this year. Well, maybe some other day though.
Selamat Hari Raya to all!!!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
♥ Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah for all the countless blessings bestowed upon me. I have finished what I started earlier and am TREMENDOUSLY happy with the results.
Last week, I flew way up to the UK again to officially receive the certificate marking my work for the past year (even though at first I was a bit reluctant and there was something behind it. I'll blog about it in a different entry) . I always prayed that I could have the chance to meet with 'Mr. Snow' again since I did not have much time with him the last time. And guess what, my prayers were answered. The first day landing in Amsterdam, there it was. In front on my eyes, the airport was blanketed in white. Pure white. Even though I was just there on transit, the scenery was breathtaking. Imagine me from Malaysia with the cotton thin clothing, arriving in Amsterdam at -8 degrees. Brrr.. went to the ladies to put on my thermal clothing + jumper + coat. The thing is that the flight to Humberside does not use the aerotunnel (whatever it is called - the thingy to board the aircraft from the departure gate) since the plane is a small focker and will need the passengers to use the bus provided to reach the aircraft. It was a bit cold indeed but I found the weather somewhat familiar.. hahaha..
Arrived in Hull and left my bags at a friend's house and went straight to town. First thing's first = SHOPPING. Hahaha.. nah.. just wanted to kill time and exhaust myself to make sure that I get enough sleep that night to ensure a fresh me the next day. And I did sleep like a log that night!
Woke up feeling fresh and excited. Got ready and walked to the university. Felt like I was still studying there. Only the dressing is a bit different today since usually I'd be wearing jeans. Was expecting to take tonnes of photos, but no one is familiar with my camera. :-( . In the end, only a few shots were captured. None of them in the hall. And after the ceremony, I had to attend another simple ceremony but my friends went to grab lunch with my camera. Huhu.. met other people, but again, no photos captured to cherish the memories. Only today, I remembered that I should have snapped pics using my phone. Too late!
The second day there, it started snowing again. Wuhuuu!! And after my friend's session, we went straight to London. And guess what? It was snowing!! Again!! The following morning, boarded a plane to Nice. The first day, brought my friend to Monaco. That night, my youngest brother joined us for dinner. The second day in Nice, we actually wanted to go skiing. But I wasn't feeling that well. We changed plans and went to Cannes and Grasse instead. And guess what, it was snowing AGAIN!!
After the trip to France, we stayed in London for 2 nights. And when it came to going back to Hull, it snowed!! In Hull, not London. The last night, before heading back to Malaysia for good, we put a night in Amsterdam. Got to visit the Red Light District! Strange enough, halal food was everywhere on that part of Amsterdam! Actually we kind of accidentally found it in search of halal food. Don't worry, I am still innocent. Still consider myself underage for that sort of thing. Hahaha..
Anyway, all in all, it was a splendid journey. Wish I could make it a yearly event or just permanently reside in the UK. Haha.. how I wish i could do that.
Last week, I flew way up to the UK again to officially receive the certificate marking my work for the past year (even though at first I was a bit reluctant and there was something behind it. I'll blog about it in a different entry) . I always prayed that I could have the chance to meet with 'Mr. Snow' again since I did not have much time with him the last time. And guess what, my prayers were answered. The first day landing in Amsterdam, there it was. In front on my eyes, the airport was blanketed in white. Pure white. Even though I was just there on transit, the scenery was breathtaking. Imagine me from Malaysia with the cotton thin clothing, arriving in Amsterdam at -8 degrees. Brrr.. went to the ladies to put on my thermal clothing + jumper + coat. The thing is that the flight to Humberside does not use the aerotunnel (whatever it is called - the thingy to board the aircraft from the departure gate) since the plane is a small focker and will need the passengers to use the bus provided to reach the aircraft. It was a bit cold indeed but I found the weather somewhat familiar.. hahaha..
Arrived in Hull and left my bags at a friend's house and went straight to town. First thing's first = SHOPPING. Hahaha.. nah.. just wanted to kill time and exhaust myself to make sure that I get enough sleep that night to ensure a fresh me the next day. And I did sleep like a log that night!
Woke up feeling fresh and excited. Got ready and walked to the university. Felt like I was still studying there. Only the dressing is a bit different today since usually I'd be wearing jeans. Was expecting to take tonnes of photos, but no one is familiar with my camera. :-( . In the end, only a few shots were captured. None of them in the hall. And after the ceremony, I had to attend another simple ceremony but my friends went to grab lunch with my camera. Huhu.. met other people, but again, no photos captured to cherish the memories. Only today, I remembered that I should have snapped pics using my phone. Too late!
The second day there, it started snowing again. Wuhuuu!! And after my friend's session, we went straight to London. And guess what? It was snowing!! Again!! The following morning, boarded a plane to Nice. The first day, brought my friend to Monaco. That night, my youngest brother joined us for dinner. The second day in Nice, we actually wanted to go skiing. But I wasn't feeling that well. We changed plans and went to Cannes and Grasse instead. And guess what, it was snowing AGAIN!!
After the trip to France, we stayed in London for 2 nights. And when it came to going back to Hull, it snowed!! In Hull, not London. The last night, before heading back to Malaysia for good, we put a night in Amsterdam. Got to visit the Red Light District! Strange enough, halal food was everywhere on that part of Amsterdam! Actually we kind of accidentally found it in search of halal food. Don't worry, I am still innocent. Still consider myself underage for that sort of thing. Hahaha..
Anyway, all in all, it was a splendid journey. Wish I could make it a yearly event or just permanently reside in the UK. Haha.. how I wish i could do that.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
♥ You know you are a workaholic when...
1. You are bored to DEATH when you have no work to do.
2. You dream about your boss almost every single day.
3. You have no time to eat, drink or even go to the loo during office hours.
4. You never realize the time. You only realize it when the office is quiet and the
last person going back tells you that the person is leaving.
5. Your annual leave is always being carried forward for next year or you apply for
leave just to do your work without any interruption.
6. You find yourself happy during workdays and lonely during weekends.
Most of the symptoms mentioned above is what I feel like. So, there, I admit that I AM A WORKAHOLIC!
2. You dream about your boss almost every single day.
3. You have no time to eat, drink or even go to the loo during office hours.
4. You never realize the time. You only realize it when the office is quiet and the
last person going back tells you that the person is leaving.
5. Your annual leave is always being carried forward for next year or you apply for
leave just to do your work without any interruption.
6. You find yourself happy during workdays and lonely during weekends.
Most of the symptoms mentioned above is what I feel like. So, there, I admit that I AM A WORKAHOLIC!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
♥ It has been 3 weeks...
Wooaa.. it's already the 3rd week of 2010. How time flies. It has also been the third month for me after coming back here. And next week, I'll report duty in my new department. Eager? I guess.. Looking forward to it?? Maybe.. At least I hope that I don't have to wait for work. Anyway, will be flying back to UK Tuesday next week for my graduation ceremony. Meaning that I will only be in my new office for 2 days before my 2 week break to the UK. Haha
Anyway, I have no excited feeling to fly back. But I know that I wanted to attend the ceremony and maybe travel a bit. But That feeling has vanished. Don't know what to expect and don't know what to feel. Hahaha.. Happy? Excited? Thrilled to meet my friends? Or looking forward to meet 'Winter' again? I don't really know. It feels different in a way. It doesn't feel like the time I first went there.
Anyway, hoping for the best and hope I'll enjoy the trip (better do so because the trip itself costs a FORTUNE!)
Anyway, I have no excited feeling to fly back. But I know that I wanted to attend the ceremony and maybe travel a bit. But That feeling has vanished. Don't know what to expect and don't know what to feel. Hahaha.. Happy? Excited? Thrilled to meet my friends? Or looking forward to meet 'Winter' again? I don't really know. It feels different in a way. It doesn't feel like the time I first went there.
Anyway, hoping for the best and hope I'll enjoy the trip (better do so because the trip itself costs a FORTUNE!)
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, December 31, 2009
♥ Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010....
2009 has reached the end. This evening, as the sun sets, will be the end of the sunshine for 2009. As the clock strikes midnight, a new year has begun. Time flies sooo fast. I can't believe that it'll be 2010 in just a couple of hours. I feel as though 2009 has just arrived. And yet, it has reached it's end.
This year started with fun and excitement after being able to continue my studies abroad which has been my dream since I was little. Having the dream of my life come true (even though not at the time that I wanted to - meaning the dream to continue studies abroad) was kind of an achievement for me. And at the time too, I kind of took the opportunity to gather my thoughts and mend my broken heart which I shoved waaayy back of my brain (hahaha.. like it's true).
I became more independent, stronger and found the little kid in me again after having it being locked for sooo long. This year also I traveled to countries I have only dreamed of going to, where some of them I never thought that I could go to! This year also gave me the chance to meet wonderful people along the way and supported be and cheered me up through my ups and downs. And this year also, I managed to prove myself to my own self.
There were times that I wished that what happened, should have been the other way around. I nearly gave up. There were the down days and I kept it all to myself, waiting it to burst and pull me down to the lowest level. But I am grateful to have wonderful friends around me and my family to support me and cheer me up when I feel down.
Alhamdulillah, 2009 has been a wonderful journey all together. The down times have been hard, where I did hit rock bottom, but managed to held my head high and climb back from the bottom with of course the wonderful people around me and with the blessing from the Almighty.
This day, the last day of 2009 is my mum's 56th birthday. Happy birthday Mama.. Love you sooo much and I hope that I have made you proud.
Just a couple of hours till a new year starts. I wish that next year will be better than this year. Goodbye 2009 and Hello 2010.
This year started with fun and excitement after being able to continue my studies abroad which has been my dream since I was little. Having the dream of my life come true (even though not at the time that I wanted to - meaning the dream to continue studies abroad) was kind of an achievement for me. And at the time too, I kind of took the opportunity to gather my thoughts and mend my broken heart which I shoved waaayy back of my brain (hahaha.. like it's true).
I became more independent, stronger and found the little kid in me again after having it being locked for sooo long. This year also I traveled to countries I have only dreamed of going to, where some of them I never thought that I could go to! This year also gave me the chance to meet wonderful people along the way and supported be and cheered me up through my ups and downs. And this year also, I managed to prove myself to my own self.
There were times that I wished that what happened, should have been the other way around. I nearly gave up. There were the down days and I kept it all to myself, waiting it to burst and pull me down to the lowest level. But I am grateful to have wonderful friends around me and my family to support me and cheer me up when I feel down.
Alhamdulillah, 2009 has been a wonderful journey all together. The down times have been hard, where I did hit rock bottom, but managed to held my head high and climb back from the bottom with of course the wonderful people around me and with the blessing from the Almighty.
This day, the last day of 2009 is my mum's 56th birthday. Happy birthday Mama.. Love you sooo much and I hope that I have made you proud.
Just a couple of hours till a new year starts. I wish that next year will be better than this year. Goodbye 2009 and Hello 2010.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, December 03, 2009
♥ It's been a while...
It's been a while since I've last written here. A year to be exact. I was actually contemplating whether to continue writing or just delete this blog. But I don't think that I can do the latter. I still do think that my previous entries are too childish. But hey, it's my blog. And I can see that I have grown up now (as if).
Alhamdulillah, my absence for the year has been a successful journey in life for me. And I have accomplished what I have been searching for (well, maybe in one aspect though). Maybe I'll continue the journey one fine day.
So, should I or shouldn't I delete this blog? Naah.. I think I'll just continue on a different note, a new fresh look (even though it does seem a bit depressing, but I like it) and maybe hopefully happy entries. Till then, enjoy your day!
*Currently listening to I'd Come for You - Nickelback
Alhamdulillah, my absence for the year has been a successful journey in life for me. And I have accomplished what I have been searching for (well, maybe in one aspect though). Maybe I'll continue the journey one fine day.
So, should I or shouldn't I delete this blog? Naah.. I think I'll just continue on a different note, a new fresh look (even though it does seem a bit depressing, but I like it) and maybe hopefully happy entries. Till then, enjoy your day!
*Currently listening to I'd Come for You - Nickelback
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, September 01, 2008
♥ Ramadhan Mubarak!!!
Have a wonderful time this holy month and grab this opportunity to double up our ibadah. Happy fasting to all Muslims out there.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
♥ Kisah hari ini di Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman - 16 August 2008
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, May 09, 2008
♥ Oh Please!!!!
I was driving to work this morning and as I was changing radio stations due to one of my favourite channel was having adverts, I came across the Fly.fm fix it. The story was about best friends for 5 years, not being best friends anymore due to the fact that the guy has found a new girlfriend. I missed the first part and as Phat Fabes and Ben said that the end of the first part, the girl-best friend asked the guy, 'Do you love me?'. And guess what? The guy said yes!And the girl said that she was also in love with him.
Come on man. During 5 years of being best friends, you just kept the feelings to yourselves? The question asked by me was asked by Phat Fabes. And they said it was complicated since the girl at that time had a boyfriend, which she broke up with and by that time, the guy found his current girlfriend.
And at the end of fix it, Phat Fabes and Ben said that they will have to back off because it is a bit personal. But I don't get the lady. She said that she IS willing to be there FOR HIM if his relationship fails. But you know what he said when asked by the DJs? He said he does not know what to do. He does not want to break the relationship with his girlfriend.
Oh my goodness, I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I totally disagree with what she says. I mean, there is no point in waiting for him if he himself shows no response at all. People should know by heart what and who they want to be with.
Well, it is now all up to her.
Come on man. During 5 years of being best friends, you just kept the feelings to yourselves? The question asked by me was asked by Phat Fabes. And they said it was complicated since the girl at that time had a boyfriend, which she broke up with and by that time, the guy found his current girlfriend.
And at the end of fix it, Phat Fabes and Ben said that they will have to back off because it is a bit personal. But I don't get the lady. She said that she IS willing to be there FOR HIM if his relationship fails. But you know what he said when asked by the DJs? He said he does not know what to do. He does not want to break the relationship with his girlfriend.
Oh my goodness, I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I totally disagree with what she says. I mean, there is no point in waiting for him if he himself shows no response at all. People should know by heart what and who they want to be with.
Well, it is now all up to her.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
♥ Ahhh.. finally...
I have been under stress lately and under a lot of pressure. But finally, yesterday, all of it has ended. Actually, the biggest part, not all though. Anyway, at least part of the burden has been lifted.
Furthermore, I am looking forward for next week. I'll be shopping and travelling again! Yippie!! Shopping splurge in Bandung from the 12th and coming back to Malaysia on th 15th just to change the set of clothing for the next trip on the 16th to 22nd May to Medan on official matters. At least I won't be in the office. Hurrah!!
Have a splendid week guys!!
Furthermore, I am looking forward for next week. I'll be shopping and travelling again! Yippie!! Shopping splurge in Bandung from the 12th and coming back to Malaysia on th 15th just to change the set of clothing for the next trip on the 16th to 22nd May to Medan on official matters. At least I won't be in the office. Hurrah!!
Have a splendid week guys!!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
♥ Butterflies in my stomach..
It has been a hectic week, no, month for me. A lot has to be done and I am burried in tonnes of work. To organize a trip for my own self has been put aside.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
Anyway, you know this feeling when you have someone you admire, and is trying to persuade you on business matters, and you feel that you are kind of obligated to accept the project? Well that kind of happened to me. I mean if it was not for the 'face-to-face' encounter today, I wouldn't have butterflies in my tummy. Since knowing that this person, whom I admire due to his capability in making my legs go weak every time he smiles (though I'd say frankly here that he is NOT HANDSOME), but just because of his charisma, I went hay-wire! Can you believe that? Furthermore, he is the GM of a company and who am I in my organization? Just an ordinary staff!
So there I was today, explaining why his company's proposal was rejected eventhough it did not even go into the management meeting. I sweated profusely eventhough my office is fully air-conditioned and the room had a separate air-condition unit trying to explain the reason why the proposal was rejected by me. He understood and presented his idea well enough to convince me that his new proposal might get the consideration from the top management. And he was willing to rewrite the proposal and discuss it with me for ammendments if there were any.
Knowing that he was coming to see me, an ordinary person in my organization, I read my horoscope for the day. I know that we cannot believe in anything that the horoscope says, but it was kind of like a coincident. Here was what my horoscope said about me today:
Scorpio
A very persuasive person will arrive on the scene, and what they say makes sense.
I guess it is true indeed.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, March 07, 2008
♥ I'll be left alone...
My best friend is getting married. The one that I have been hanging out with lately. I knew the time would come. At least I am happy that she's happy. And I am honoured that she has chosen me to be the wedding planner and made arrangements that the ceremony and reception is done before I fly. Where to? Somewhere that I can find peace and mend my broken heart.
I am truly happy for her. She even asked me to be the bridesmaid which I am a bit reluctant. But I guess I have to get busy in toning up for her day.
Congratulations my dearest friend.
I am truly happy for her. She even asked me to be the bridesmaid which I am a bit reluctant. But I guess I have to get busy in toning up for her day.
Congratulations my dearest friend.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, February 07, 2008
♥ Movies...movies... movies...
Have you ever been in a cinema where only you and your friends were enjoying the film? I had 2 opportunities which happened as you can see in the Hotlink ad not so far ago but the difference is that my friends did not hide behind me nor I hid behind them, but the cinema was empty and only we were the people watching that movie.
Surely you'd ask which cinema and what movie did we watch right? Okay, the first occurance was in MBO Cineplex in Warta Bangi. Well, that could have been expected right? But the best thing was that MBO Cineplex in Warta is the only cinema in Bangi. But I guess having Mines nearby and also KL is just half an hour away, so not many people would choose to catch a movie in MBO Bangi.
It was Sepet that attracted me to go and catch a movie there with my colleagues. After buying the ticket, we went in the new cinema and there, only 3 of us were in the hall. We laughed out loud, talked loudly and commented on every scene since the cinema was ours. This happened again last Sunday. But this time in Jusco Cheras Selatan. I went there planning to watch Game Plan with my friends and it turned out that we were a bit late for the 1.00pm show. So, we decided to watch another movie and it was between Meet the Spartans or Eastern Promises. We then settled for Eastern Promises after seeing that Viggo Mortensen is the lead actor and Naomi Watts also starred in the movie. Upon entrance, we were among the first. And it never occurred to us that we were also the last. Until a guy entered the hall. And then, the lights went dim. We were like surprised. We made the hall as it was ours. And the movie was so-so but violence for kids though. You could see throats being slashed and blood gushing out. And there was one part that the gushing blood was zoomed! The story is like a mafia kind thingy. Not actually my cup of tea but I did enjoy it though. But the ending was a bit disappointing. It was like a hanging ending and you make up your own conclusion.
But today, as I planned to watch the release of Dunia Baru The Movie, I had predicted that the queue would be a long one for the tickets since the release is today – a public holiday. So, I booked the tickets from home and arrived 30 minutes before the show, which my booked ticket was auto cancelled by the system. Thank God that the cute guy at the counter did not make me queue up for new tickets! Luckily I got the seats that I booked. Only in the end that my friend couldn’t make it since there was an emergency that she had to attend to (which I hope is okay by now).
The hall was full with families and all generations. Only 2 spaces were empty plus the vacant seat beside me which was supposedly to be filled by my friend.
I enjoyed Dunia Baru The Movie and the story is a simple story but very relaxing and I enjoyed every bit of it. I have been a true fan of Dunia Baru and seeing it being turned into a movie makes me feel proud. And I assure you that this move is for the whole family and a worth watch if you are a addict of Dunia Baru.
p/s: I hope that the guy at the ticket counter is blessed for helping me and his life is filled with kaf-ba-ra-kaf-alif-ta-nun - KEBERKATAN.
p/p/s: Happy birthday Fafau - my favourite Melodi host and Deejay of Hotfm.
Surely you'd ask which cinema and what movie did we watch right? Okay, the first occurance was in MBO Cineplex in Warta Bangi. Well, that could have been expected right? But the best thing was that MBO Cineplex in Warta is the only cinema in Bangi. But I guess having Mines nearby and also KL is just half an hour away, so not many people would choose to catch a movie in MBO Bangi.
It was Sepet that attracted me to go and catch a movie there with my colleagues. After buying the ticket, we went in the new cinema and there, only 3 of us were in the hall. We laughed out loud, talked loudly and commented on every scene since the cinema was ours. This happened again last Sunday. But this time in Jusco Cheras Selatan. I went there planning to watch Game Plan with my friends and it turned out that we were a bit late for the 1.00pm show. So, we decided to watch another movie and it was between Meet the Spartans or Eastern Promises. We then settled for Eastern Promises after seeing that Viggo Mortensen is the lead actor and Naomi Watts also starred in the movie. Upon entrance, we were among the first. And it never occurred to us that we were also the last. Until a guy entered the hall. And then, the lights went dim. We were like surprised. We made the hall as it was ours. And the movie was so-so but violence for kids though. You could see throats being slashed and blood gushing out. And there was one part that the gushing blood was zoomed! The story is like a mafia kind thingy. Not actually my cup of tea but I did enjoy it though. But the ending was a bit disappointing. It was like a hanging ending and you make up your own conclusion.
But today, as I planned to watch the release of Dunia Baru The Movie, I had predicted that the queue would be a long one for the tickets since the release is today – a public holiday. So, I booked the tickets from home and arrived 30 minutes before the show, which my booked ticket was auto cancelled by the system. Thank God that the cute guy at the counter did not make me queue up for new tickets! Luckily I got the seats that I booked. Only in the end that my friend couldn’t make it since there was an emergency that she had to attend to (which I hope is okay by now).
The hall was full with families and all generations. Only 2 spaces were empty plus the vacant seat beside me which was supposedly to be filled by my friend.
I enjoyed Dunia Baru The Movie and the story is a simple story but very relaxing and I enjoyed every bit of it. I have been a true fan of Dunia Baru and seeing it being turned into a movie makes me feel proud. And I assure you that this move is for the whole family and a worth watch if you are a addict of Dunia Baru.
p/s: I hope that the guy at the ticket counter is blessed for helping me and his life is filled with kaf-ba-ra-kaf-alif-ta-nun - KEBERKATAN.
p/p/s: Happy birthday Fafau - my favourite Melodi host and Deejay of Hotfm.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Sunday, February 03, 2008
♥ Oppsss..
Being a typical Malaysian citizen, one will know that there are certain aspects and habits that are a total no-no and related to Malays. First thing is the time management of Malays. We are so famous for being late and punctuality is like an alien to the Malays. We also have the name for making promises which involves time - janji Melayu (Malay promises).
That is only one aspect. The other aspects that we are known for is being the lazy bums. Melayu is often said as me-layu which means that we are always in a lazy state.
Cutting queue is also a well-known habit to Malaysians. I really loathe people with all the mentioned habits. I mean people have their own problems and settle them by themselves. But if everytime this habit appears, then what is the point in living in the same world as others? People can tolerate with the doings once in a while with a reasonable reason. But every time?
Which brings us to this topic today. I accidentally took a parking space. I mean there was this car in front of my car that stopped and it was kind of showing that it wanted to turn left. And I saw a parking space on my right. So, I gave a signal indicating that I wanted to take the parking space. The car just stopped and I thought it was waiting for another car or something and I did not suspect it to take the vacant parking space since the driver never gave the signal. So, I swerved in the parking space, actually reversed parking. And I saw the driver's face. He was like speechless. I was like what?? Did I do something wrong?? And then the car went on and I saw it taking a parking space that was just a few meters away. And then it hit me. Oppsss.. I have that habit that I loathe others having.
And as I walked to the shop that I intended to grab a few things, I kind of said to myself. Was I turning to the typical Malaysians? Well, I just said to myself that I had no intention to grab the vacant parking space from you and besides, you never gave the signal.
So, I am apologizing publicly to the driver of a silver hyundai coupe, who I accidentally took the vacant parking space today. I hope that you are not angry and next time, please use your signals to indicate where you're navigating to.
That is only one aspect. The other aspects that we are known for is being the lazy bums. Melayu is often said as me-layu which means that we are always in a lazy state.
Cutting queue is also a well-known habit to Malaysians. I really loathe people with all the mentioned habits. I mean people have their own problems and settle them by themselves. But if everytime this habit appears, then what is the point in living in the same world as others? People can tolerate with the doings once in a while with a reasonable reason. But every time?
Which brings us to this topic today. I accidentally took a parking space. I mean there was this car in front of my car that stopped and it was kind of showing that it wanted to turn left. And I saw a parking space on my right. So, I gave a signal indicating that I wanted to take the parking space. The car just stopped and I thought it was waiting for another car or something and I did not suspect it to take the vacant parking space since the driver never gave the signal. So, I swerved in the parking space, actually reversed parking. And I saw the driver's face. He was like speechless. I was like what?? Did I do something wrong?? And then the car went on and I saw it taking a parking space that was just a few meters away. And then it hit me. Oppsss.. I have that habit that I loathe others having.
And as I walked to the shop that I intended to grab a few things, I kind of said to myself. Was I turning to the typical Malaysians? Well, I just said to myself that I had no intention to grab the vacant parking space from you and besides, you never gave the signal.
So, I am apologizing publicly to the driver of a silver hyundai coupe, who I accidentally took the vacant parking space today. I hope that you are not angry and next time, please use your signals to indicate where you're navigating to.
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
♥ When language is seldomly used...
I have just sat for my language exam and I tell you, that if you seldom use the language, you will find it hard to answer. And one more thing, today was my first day sitting for an exam after what, like 8 years? Tuning back and gearing up yourself for an exam is exhausting and I have forgotten how it feels like until today.
I'd advice those planning to take language proficiency exams - polish up your skills. I mean start to scan-read, listen to tapes or hearing aids that can familiarize you with all kinds of accents and the best part is that, talk slow. Don't rush on your points and your speed of speech. I was given 2 minutes to talk about the thing I love - shopping! But I finished up in less the 2 minutes! I have already used all the points given and elaborated it quite long. And there was no hmmms,aaahs what-so-ever. But I ran out of ideas on the simplest favourite topic! How pathethic right?
So, all the best!!
I'd advice those planning to take language proficiency exams - polish up your skills. I mean start to scan-read, listen to tapes or hearing aids that can familiarize you with all kinds of accents and the best part is that, talk slow. Don't rush on your points and your speed of speech. I was given 2 minutes to talk about the thing I love - shopping! But I finished up in less the 2 minutes! I have already used all the points given and elaborated it quite long. And there was no hmmms,aaahs what-so-ever. But I ran out of ideas on the simplest favourite topic! How pathethic right?
So, all the best!!
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Am i really never good enough for you?
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