Hafiz never really caught my attention the first few episodes. His naiveness kind of irritated me in one episode when he had to play against Carliff to determine the 'weakest' player in the team to face the jury. He was like being the too kind-hearted. But peopple started noticing him when he started to win most of the tasks. And being only one of the two contestants speaking in Malay in this show really gave him some extra airtime. And another plus point for him is his kind heart and him being down-to-earth. His sincere friendship does not make others hate him, but love him more. Just a downside when he lets his emotions interfere with his judgement. But in the show, I don't see that as a negative point but an advantage since this is about what women want.

We can see his sincerity in his actions and makes his eyes twinkle. He has the persona of what women seek in a man.

Dr. Gregory House is another crush of mine. The way he speaks, the cynical remarks and blunt accusations attract me in a way. His appearance as a 'rough' and 'tough' guy with an unshaven beard is really tempting. And the same question that has been playing in my mind here - am I attracted to Dr. House or Laurie in person?

See? I am not just torn between 2 crushes but 4!

Who shall it be?

*p/s: I am really hoping that Hafiz will be the winner for What Women Want but at the same time I wish Sham would also win it. Any one of these two who would win this title of What Women Want would really make my day. Good luck Sham and Hafiz.

Today, 7th February 2007, is the xxth birthday of Fara Fauzana. She has bloomed and grown to be a funky and cheerful host of Melodi and also a deejay at hotFM.

I doubted her ability last 2 years when she started at Era.fm. But she has proved me wrong. She did earn 2 trophys back to back as the best female host in Anugerah Bintang Popular Berita Harian 2005 and 2006. And she is climbing the ladder for the best female deejay one day.

Anyway, Fara, happy birthday and congratulations for being named the best female host in ABPBH 2006.

My grandmother (my mom's aunt) passed away today. I weren't really close to her but my parents forces us to visit my late grandmother and grandfather every year without a miss since our schooldays on Hari Raya.

She has been ill since I can't remember when. But my grandfather would take care of her no matter what. She sometimes has lapses of memories and mood swings which results in her change of 'friendliness' towards people.

One year, during Hari Raya Aidilfitri, I visited her and since I have started working, I kind of gave her 'duit raya'. At the feel of the angpau in her hands, her face that was once very sour and has no smile, changed. Her lips moved upward to form a thin smile on her face. That year, when the family came to visit us, she was talking non-stop to me - pouring all her stories about my late grandmother and how she misses her and sometimes dream of her. She told me stories about my grandfather, her grandchildren and I just listened and laughed at her stories. And she says that she always pray for my success and my health and never be ill.

The next year and the following year, I couldn't visit her during Raya since I had to go to Singapore for an outstation and caught a fever the following year. My mom said that Nenek Alang asked about my whereabouts and says that she has been praying for my success in life and my health.

I made a promise to myself last year that I will visit her during Hari Raya. She was so excited and delighted to see me and as usual, I'd be the one talking to her and listening all her stories. Even my aunts were kind of surprised to see Nenek Alang talking non-stop with me.

I never knew that that was the last day that I would be listening to her stories. She passed away this morning at 10.10am with her children and husband beside her at the age of 65. I know that I would miss her and her saying... ' Nenek selalu doakan agar kau berjaya dalam hidup, sihat selalu dan tak sakit...'. Alfatihah.