Thursday, March 31, 2005
♥ Movie Mania
Recently I have been under a lot of stress and pressure from workload and expectations and also by people around me. I have written in this blog sometime ago that I like working under pressure. But it seems like I have already been ego or something like that that Allah forbids me and is trying to test me with all this.
Anyway, this entry is about movies that I watched in the past 2 weeks. Due to being pressured to the max, I tried to release the steam and the feelings bolted up inside me by going to the movies.
The first time I went to watch a movie was 6 years back. Yupp, during my university years. And that was because my friends wanted to hang out and watch a movie. I was so delighted because that was my first experience to the movies and I just could not imagine at that time how the movies were and the settings and all. That movie was Senario Lagi. And on top of going to the movies, we later found out that Senario was there for the roadtour along with Umie Aida. I was so happy and I just could not find the words to express the feeling.
Anyway, after graduating, I did not have any friends and the right time to go to the movies. And I just settled for the CD version. It is not that I don’t have any friends, but most of them are from the northern region and I live in the central region. And when I started working, my colleagues mostly are quite senior in age, and I didn’t have any choice except to buy CDs to watch movies. Well, not until recently when most of my colleagues are mostly the same age range as me.
I went out with a couple of friends and watched Lemony Snickets. It was okay. There are things that are hilarious and some that are quite sad. But the most important part is that people can be greedy sometimes and they will do things that are beyond our expectations.
I was really under a lot of stress and had to come to work on Saturday (which was supposed to be a holiday) and I told myself that I need a break. So I decided to catch a movie. And I went alone to The Mines to watch Hitch. It was hilarious and I enjoyed it. Even though I was there alone, but I laughed out loud and didn’t feel like I was there alone. I really enjoyed the movie. I was even in tears towards the end of the movie when Sara (Eva Mendes) accused Hitch (Will Smith) of lying to her and her best friend. The way Hitch felt hurt because Sara just trusted the so-called source really made me cry. On the other hand, I really wished that there were people like Doctor Date in this world to help the women – especially me. He..he..
Last Saturday, I went to watch Miss Congeniality 2. I enjoyed this movie as well. It was fun and I did shed tears again. How pathetic right? But I enjoy it that way. It makes me feel that that movie is good because I can really feel the emotion of it.
The latest movie that I watched was Sepet. I have been waiting to watch this movie for weeks after the review in several blogs. The thing was that I didn’t have time to go to KLCC to watch it. But guess what, even Warta Bangi - YES I mean The Warta Bangi as stated in Javard’s blog where he gets his AF CD’s showed the movie. Well, I guess the cinema isn’t as superb as TGV or GSC, but it’s new. And the best part, we (my colleagues and I) were the only viewers that evening. The cinema was ours. Ha..ha.. I really enjoyed the movie. It was superb. It is as good as the reviews from blogs I’ve been to and I even bought the original CD. And I wasn’t even glancing at my watch for the time. I just sat there and enjoyed the movie and when the ending came, I was like – Haaa?? Dah abis?? (in between tears) . This movie really did bring back old memories of my friend. And this is one true Malaysian story. Thank you Yasmin Ahmad for the wonderful movie and congratulations for the award. I won’t do any reviews here about Sepet because I am no expert in that field. But one thing for sure, I really enjoyed it.
Anyway, this entry is about movies that I watched in the past 2 weeks. Due to being pressured to the max, I tried to release the steam and the feelings bolted up inside me by going to the movies.
The first time I went to watch a movie was 6 years back. Yupp, during my university years. And that was because my friends wanted to hang out and watch a movie. I was so delighted because that was my first experience to the movies and I just could not imagine at that time how the movies were and the settings and all. That movie was Senario Lagi. And on top of going to the movies, we later found out that Senario was there for the roadtour along with Umie Aida. I was so happy and I just could not find the words to express the feeling.
Anyway, after graduating, I did not have any friends and the right time to go to the movies. And I just settled for the CD version. It is not that I don’t have any friends, but most of them are from the northern region and I live in the central region. And when I started working, my colleagues mostly are quite senior in age, and I didn’t have any choice except to buy CDs to watch movies. Well, not until recently when most of my colleagues are mostly the same age range as me.
I went out with a couple of friends and watched Lemony Snickets. It was okay. There are things that are hilarious and some that are quite sad. But the most important part is that people can be greedy sometimes and they will do things that are beyond our expectations.
I was really under a lot of stress and had to come to work on Saturday (which was supposed to be a holiday) and I told myself that I need a break. So I decided to catch a movie. And I went alone to The Mines to watch Hitch. It was hilarious and I enjoyed it. Even though I was there alone, but I laughed out loud and didn’t feel like I was there alone. I really enjoyed the movie. I was even in tears towards the end of the movie when Sara (Eva Mendes) accused Hitch (Will Smith) of lying to her and her best friend. The way Hitch felt hurt because Sara just trusted the so-called source really made me cry. On the other hand, I really wished that there were people like Doctor Date in this world to help the women – especially me. He..he..
Last Saturday, I went to watch Miss Congeniality 2. I enjoyed this movie as well. It was fun and I did shed tears again. How pathetic right? But I enjoy it that way. It makes me feel that that movie is good because I can really feel the emotion of it.
The latest movie that I watched was Sepet. I have been waiting to watch this movie for weeks after the review in several blogs. The thing was that I didn’t have time to go to KLCC to watch it. But guess what, even Warta Bangi - YES I mean The Warta Bangi as stated in Javard’s blog where he gets his AF CD’s showed the movie. Well, I guess the cinema isn’t as superb as TGV or GSC, but it’s new. And the best part, we (my colleagues and I) were the only viewers that evening. The cinema was ours. Ha..ha.. I really enjoyed the movie. It was superb. It is as good as the reviews from blogs I’ve been to and I even bought the original CD. And I wasn’t even glancing at my watch for the time. I just sat there and enjoyed the movie and when the ending came, I was like – Haaa?? Dah abis?? (in between tears) . This movie really did bring back old memories of my friend. And this is one true Malaysian story. Thank you Yasmin Ahmad for the wonderful movie and congratulations for the award. I won’t do any reviews here about Sepet because I am no expert in that field. But one thing for sure, I really enjoyed it.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
♥ Pissed Off
* WARNING! This entry is written under lots of pressure.
I don't know what got into me today. But I am pissed off. I know that I am an individual that seldom complains and just smiles when people try to offend me in any way, but I am NOT ALWAYS like that. I've learnt that I have to be straightforward today so that people won't just pijak kepala as easy as that. I try not to offend other people and the result is that I have been treated in a way I really avoid treating other people.
Well I guess they want to see the b*tch in me. So what the h*ll!
I don't know what got into me today. But I am pissed off. I know that I am an individual that seldom complains and just smiles when people try to offend me in any way, but I am NOT ALWAYS like that. I've learnt that I have to be straightforward today so that people won't just pijak kepala as easy as that. I try not to offend other people and the result is that I have been treated in a way I really avoid treating other people.
Well I guess they want to see the b*tch in me. So what the h*ll!
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, March 25, 2005
♥ Laugh out loud!!
I am in a good mood today. i woke up grinning and smiling. And until now, I just cannot wipe that grin off my face. And people think that my grin is a silly grin. Ha..ha..
I arrived at the office and checked my emails. I received this email from a good friend of mine. And I was laughing out loud reading this email. So, I thought that since I am in a great mood, I would like to share the email here. So, here it goes..
A co-worker got a pen stuck inside a printer just before we had to
go to a meeting. He started to try and remove the pen, but I told him
"We don't have time for that now, just put a note on the printer telling
people not to use it and then report it to the Help Desk." So he
grabbed a piece of paper and scrawled on it. I left before he finished the
note.
Later, one of my colleagues comes in laughing and says he was just
in the lobby, saw a piece of paper on a printer and went to investigate.
Here is what he found.
Sometimes things don't always come out the way you want them to.:)
I arrived at the office and checked my emails. I received this email from a good friend of mine. And I was laughing out loud reading this email. So, I thought that since I am in a great mood, I would like to share the email here. So, here it goes..
A co-worker got a pen stuck inside a printer just before we had to
go to a meeting. He started to try and remove the pen, but I told him
"We don't have time for that now, just put a note on the printer telling
people not to use it and then report it to the Help Desk." So he
grabbed a piece of paper and scrawled on it. I left before he finished the
note.
Later, one of my colleagues comes in laughing and says he was just
in the lobby, saw a piece of paper on a printer and went to investigate.
Here is what he found.
Sometimes things don't always come out the way you want them to.:)
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
♥ Sense of humor
I would love to be friends with guys with a great sense of humor. I just cannot imagine guys who are a bit slow in picking up the jokes that people tell. Is it so hard? And then, they will be the laughing stock. Ha..ha..
It is nothing against them. I guess that people are somewhat unique in a way. But the problem arises when a joke comes between the conversations. I would sometime feel pity for that guy. And at times, I would just feel like laughing out loud because he is so naïve. He will seem to be cute because he is naive. But that will become something that will linger in my mind for quite sometime.
People come in different traits. Some are so hardworking, polite, has a great sense of humor, serious etc. We need to fool around sometime. We cannot just take life so seriously. You will turn out to be someone that is so boring. I am not saying that I am perfect in any way, but the other trait that I do not have in myself, I would like to find it in the other half of me.
Being with people without sense of humor makes my life so dull. I have to be someone that I do not know and am not comfortable with. And how do you portray yourself if you do not know the person you are being?
A great sense of humor is an advantage, but it is not a must for people to be my friend.
It is nothing against them. I guess that people are somewhat unique in a way. But the problem arises when a joke comes between the conversations. I would sometime feel pity for that guy. And at times, I would just feel like laughing out loud because he is so naïve. He will seem to be cute because he is naive. But that will become something that will linger in my mind for quite sometime.
People come in different traits. Some are so hardworking, polite, has a great sense of humor, serious etc. We need to fool around sometime. We cannot just take life so seriously. You will turn out to be someone that is so boring. I am not saying that I am perfect in any way, but the other trait that I do not have in myself, I would like to find it in the other half of me.
Being with people without sense of humor makes my life so dull. I have to be someone that I do not know and am not comfortable with. And how do you portray yourself if you do not know the person you are being?
A great sense of humor is an advantage, but it is not a must for people to be my friend.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
♥ Favourite break-up songs
Yipppiiieeee! At last, half of the burden that has been on my shoulders has been lifted yesterday. And I am totally glad about that. I wish that all of was lifted from my shoulders. But what can I do? At least I am feeling a bit happy today and a bit lazy to do my work and finish up anything. So what I have done today is 65% of actual work and the rest is just surfing the net and reading other people’s blog. I really love reading blogs and other people’s point of view. Very interesting.
I was browsing through my music files and came across several songs that I really love. Lagu jiwang and those were the days memang jiwa tengah jiwang karat! Sampai sekarang pun! Tapi nak kata jiwa jiwang tu, takdela sangat kot. Aik? Dalam Bahasa Melayu rojak entry hari ini? Takpela, I really feel like writing in a language that I feel comfortable.
Lagu pertama yang I cam across was lagu nyanyian Kumpulan Rio – Layu di Hujung Mekar. Wah, I really love that song. Nak kata ada kena mengena, entahla. But the lyrics tu yang sometimes make me think. Yelah, lyrics dia part awal tu – Haruskah ku terus melayani perasaan.. meskipun ku tahu dirimu sudah berteman.. – Masa dengar tu macam rasa buat apa nak layan perasaan tu kalau dah tahu kan? But kalau jadi pada diri sendiri, memang berbelah bahagi perasaan tu kan? And memang susah untuk tidak melayani perasaan tengah hangat bercinta. Kalau dengar lagu ni masa frust tu, memang kena sediakan berbakul-bakul tisu. Esoknya muka mesti bengkak sebab asyik nangis je.
Lagu kedua daripada Lestari - Mahligaimu dari Airmataku. Entah kenapa saya suka sangat lagu ni. Maybe after a certain event yang menimpa diri saya. I wished that I never met that person. Tapi kalau tak pernah jumpa, tak adalah kenangan yang sering bermain di fikiran kan? Lagu ini seolah memahami apa yang saya rasakan dan seolah-olah berada dalam situasi itu. Tapi pada hakikatnya tidak. The best part yang saya suka – Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia.. Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka.. Baiknyalah mendoakan kebahagiaan orang yang menghancurkan cinta kita. Kalau real life, susah nak jumpa orang sedemikian. Bukan nak kata takde, ada. Tapi mungkin tak ramai. Di kalangan people kat luar tu, ramai yang lebih suka mendoakan kehancuran relationship baru ex kita kan? He..he..
Lagu ketiga yang best giler rasa kejiwangan dia ialah lagu daripada Sting - Dalam Diam Aku Mencintaimu. Wow.. tajuk pun dah jiwang karat. Memang masa tu jiwang giler kot. Maklumlah, zaman cinta monyet. Lagu ni kalau tuju kat secret admirer memang besh! Teringat kenangan masa budak hingusan dulu memang suka giler lagu ni. Bila dengar je, mesti berangan. Wakakaka.. tapi itu dulu. The new me, bila dengar lagu ni, ketawa sebab teringat zaman ‘jahiliyah’ dulu. He..he.. Actually lagu inilah yang menyebabkan saya tercetus nak cari balik lagu-lagu jiwang karat yang kira masa kalau frust menonggeng ditinggalkan orang tu boleh meleleh segala air mata dan air hidung kan. He..he..
Mengintai dari Tirai Kamar dari Exists. Wah.. feveret song bila break up or dikecewakan. Ayat power dalam lagu ini – Siapalah aku ini untuk memintal buih yang memutih.. menjadi permaidani seperti mana yang tertulis dalam novel cinta.. Juga mustahil bagiku menggapai bintang di langit.. menjadikan hantaran syarat untuk milikimu.. semua itu sungguh aku tak termampu.. silap aku juga kerna jatuh cinta.. insan sepertimu seanggun bidadari.. seharusnya aku cerminkan diriku.. sebelum tirai kamar aku buka untuk mengintaimu.. Wah.. pedih sungguh bab suruh cerminkan diri. He..he.. but memang lagu ni best giler dengar bila frust. Seksa batin bila mendengarnya. Rasa macam nak robek je hati dan koyakkan hati sendiri. He..he.. ini betul-betul psycho ni sebab nak robek dan koyakkan hati sendiri.
Anyway, lagu-lagu inilah yang memberi kesan mendalam pada diri sendiri. And it brings a lot of memories – sad and joyful memories. Sometimes it’s worth remembering the past, but if you still can’t move on, why wait for that person? Macam lagi Rio tadi tu .. Haruskah ku terus melayani perasaan.. meskipun ku tahu dirimu sudah berteman.. Membazir aje.. he..he.. (it’s easy for me to say, but susah nak buatkan? Been there, done that.
So, what are your favourite break-up songs?
I was browsing through my music files and came across several songs that I really love. Lagu jiwang and those were the days memang jiwa tengah jiwang karat! Sampai sekarang pun! Tapi nak kata jiwa jiwang tu, takdela sangat kot. Aik? Dalam Bahasa Melayu rojak entry hari ini? Takpela, I really feel like writing in a language that I feel comfortable.
Lagu pertama yang I cam across was lagu nyanyian Kumpulan Rio – Layu di Hujung Mekar. Wah, I really love that song. Nak kata ada kena mengena, entahla. But the lyrics tu yang sometimes make me think. Yelah, lyrics dia part awal tu – Haruskah ku terus melayani perasaan.. meskipun ku tahu dirimu sudah berteman.. – Masa dengar tu macam rasa buat apa nak layan perasaan tu kalau dah tahu kan? But kalau jadi pada diri sendiri, memang berbelah bahagi perasaan tu kan? And memang susah untuk tidak melayani perasaan tengah hangat bercinta. Kalau dengar lagu ni masa frust tu, memang kena sediakan berbakul-bakul tisu. Esoknya muka mesti bengkak sebab asyik nangis je.
Lagu kedua daripada Lestari - Mahligaimu dari Airmataku. Entah kenapa saya suka sangat lagu ni. Maybe after a certain event yang menimpa diri saya. I wished that I never met that person. Tapi kalau tak pernah jumpa, tak adalah kenangan yang sering bermain di fikiran kan? Lagu ini seolah memahami apa yang saya rasakan dan seolah-olah berada dalam situasi itu. Tapi pada hakikatnya tidak. The best part yang saya suka – Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia.. Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka.. Baiknyalah mendoakan kebahagiaan orang yang menghancurkan cinta kita. Kalau real life, susah nak jumpa orang sedemikian. Bukan nak kata takde, ada. Tapi mungkin tak ramai. Di kalangan people kat luar tu, ramai yang lebih suka mendoakan kehancuran relationship baru ex kita kan? He..he..
Lagu ketiga yang best giler rasa kejiwangan dia ialah lagu daripada Sting - Dalam Diam Aku Mencintaimu. Wow.. tajuk pun dah jiwang karat. Memang masa tu jiwang giler kot. Maklumlah, zaman cinta monyet. Lagu ni kalau tuju kat secret admirer memang besh! Teringat kenangan masa budak hingusan dulu memang suka giler lagu ni. Bila dengar je, mesti berangan. Wakakaka.. tapi itu dulu. The new me, bila dengar lagu ni, ketawa sebab teringat zaman ‘jahiliyah’ dulu. He..he.. Actually lagu inilah yang menyebabkan saya tercetus nak cari balik lagu-lagu jiwang karat yang kira masa kalau frust menonggeng ditinggalkan orang tu boleh meleleh segala air mata dan air hidung kan. He..he..
Mengintai dari Tirai Kamar dari Exists. Wah.. feveret song bila break up or dikecewakan. Ayat power dalam lagu ini – Siapalah aku ini untuk memintal buih yang memutih.. menjadi permaidani seperti mana yang tertulis dalam novel cinta.. Juga mustahil bagiku menggapai bintang di langit.. menjadikan hantaran syarat untuk milikimu.. semua itu sungguh aku tak termampu.. silap aku juga kerna jatuh cinta.. insan sepertimu seanggun bidadari.. seharusnya aku cerminkan diriku.. sebelum tirai kamar aku buka untuk mengintaimu.. Wah.. pedih sungguh bab suruh cerminkan diri. He..he.. but memang lagu ni best giler dengar bila frust. Seksa batin bila mendengarnya. Rasa macam nak robek je hati dan koyakkan hati sendiri. He..he.. ini betul-betul psycho ni sebab nak robek dan koyakkan hati sendiri.
Anyway, lagu-lagu inilah yang memberi kesan mendalam pada diri sendiri. And it brings a lot of memories – sad and joyful memories. Sometimes it’s worth remembering the past, but if you still can’t move on, why wait for that person? Macam lagi Rio tadi tu .. Haruskah ku terus melayani perasaan.. meskipun ku tahu dirimu sudah berteman.. Membazir aje.. he..he.. (it’s easy for me to say, but susah nak buatkan? Been there, done that.
So, what are your favourite break-up songs?
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, March 14, 2005
♥ How I wish....
I have been stressed out lately. My eyes hurt and they have a certain glaze because I have been staring at the monitor nearly 12 hours a day! And I just cannot stop to do other things. By the time I am back in reality, it is already time to go out and play. Well at least I know that jogging or walking eases my stress level. At least that was until last Thursday. I went for a jog (or I would rather call it walk because I only jog for about 100 – 200 meters only.. he..he..) and the track was occupied with other people training for the upcoming sports event. I wanted to stop after walking for 2 rounds because my legs seemed to cramp. I looked behind me to see if there are any other joggers or sprinters in the lane before crossing it. And I saw none. As I was crossing with my legs hurt badly, I was hit by a sprinter. Kappoooowww… I was turning to the other direction and heading for the ground. I saw the sprinter was on the ground as well. He apologized to me and asked me if I was okay. He said that he was sorry and he did not notice me crossing the tracks. I was like what?? I am that ‘small’? I could not stand pain in my leg and my right arm. Until today it stings. Anyway, the sprinter just got up and headed towards his friends. After that, they raced and he was still in a good shape. I was in agony. I felt like breaking down and crying that instant. The pain really did hurt so much and I was limping back to the car. Could you guys imagine being hit by a moving object that moved 30km/hr? That was what I felt when he hit me. Anyway, today my legs do not hurt that much anymore but my right arm cannot bend as usual. It still stings.
Enough about that. I just wanted to share a song that I currently love listening to. I play this song over and over and over. He..he.. I am really obsessed with this song and I think many out there are obsessed with it because everywhere I read, I would see the lyrics of this song and their entry about it. I have thought about writing about this song after listening to it the first time sometime in February, but I lost the spirit and enthusiasm of writing due to the stress. Anyway, here is the song…
Mungkin Nanti (PeterPan)
Saat daku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sejarah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja
Kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
Rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pinta ku
Jangan kau cuba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kelmarin
Saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja
Kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
Rasa itu telah pergi
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untuk mu sendiri
Semua sesalan kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri
Arggghhhh… I feel like I am in a fantasy world dreaming about HIM. But I would rather feel like what the song says. How I wish……
Enough about that. I just wanted to share a song that I currently love listening to. I play this song over and over and over. He..he.. I am really obsessed with this song and I think many out there are obsessed with it because everywhere I read, I would see the lyrics of this song and their entry about it. I have thought about writing about this song after listening to it the first time sometime in February, but I lost the spirit and enthusiasm of writing due to the stress. Anyway, here is the song…
Mungkin Nanti (PeterPan)
Saat daku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sejarah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja
Kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
Rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pinta ku
Jangan kau cuba
Tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati
Seperti hari kelmarin
Saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja
Kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja
Rasa itu telah pergi
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan untuk mu sendiri
Semua sesalan kau cari
Semua rasa yang kau beri
Arggghhhh… I feel like I am in a fantasy world dreaming about HIM. But I would rather feel like what the song says. How I wish……
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
♥ Split Decision
Yesterday’s entry was a bit emotional. But I felt relieved after publishing that entry. Even though I didn’t say it in front of the people involved in making myself emotional, at least I have already lessen the burden of tension in my mind.
What made me laugh last night was the fact that what happened in the meeting room in Royal Adelphi was more or less like what happened in the Apex Corporation. The project leader was incompetent in making decisions. And the worst part is that she will agree on the first idea and in seconds she will change her mind to idea number two and then change her mind again and again. How can you be a manager if the members on the floor can easily change your point of view and change the whole plan? Either way, whether your idea is brilliant or not, you will always have to stick by it. And if that decision fails, you will have to take full responsibility on the decision you made. Yes, it is hard being the top manager or the person in charge of a company. People around you will say that you just boss people around. But do they know that sometimes decision has to be made in a split second? And what if the decision made turned out to be the wrong decision and failed the whole project?
Currently my office is having a black out. Wow.. great. Another day of rest. But the heat, I cannot stand. Luckily it’s raining here so, it’s a bit cool. But the humidity still wins. Anyway, like I said, being a manager requires sharp skills of forecasting. And you really need to gather as much information to make a quick but yet excellent decision. And that does not come through the bloodline (even sometimes it does) but through reading and experiencing. I believe in making mistakes to make a person perfect. That way you can always learn something new. Seldom organizations will allow their staffs to make mistakes. But one or two small mistakes are okay for me. At least the person will have to learn from it and take really cautious actions to prevent it from occurring again.
Some people in my organization think that I am totally informed and experienced in my field. Well, I think that 5 years in this department is still not enough to say that I am experienced in my field. I still need to learn a lot and make myself equipped and prepared for the unexpected. I thank them for saying that I am considered as an expert but I really do feel that I need more exposure, which I am really looking for, and really seek the opportunity in being exposed to new things, which I feel that I am overdoing it at times. Well, we have to grab anything that comes our way to gain experience because in a way, it shows our own initiative.
Okay, I just wanted to share my POV. And it is like something that I really believe in. Now I’d like to change the subject to something that is light and not that serious. I really love listening to the radio and sing. I rarely show my talent in singing. He.. he.. (like I have the talent). Nowadays, there are a lot of new comers in the industry, which sometimes when their first single is on air; I’d guess that it’s this person’s song. And then when the deejay announces the original singer, I would like be surprised. Ha??? A new clone? But when they come out with the second single etc, there would be a slight difference in the way they sing.
There is this song from Farahdhiya – Bertakhta di Hati. At first listening to the song, I thought that is was from Deja Moss. The way she ramifies sounds a bit like Deja Moss in a way. Well, back to the song – I love it! And it reflects how I feel in a way. I really hate it when this ‘feeling’ comes, but I have tried my best to diminish the feeling. Sometimes I’ll win, but at times I’d be soooo weak and I would break down and cry. So typical of me write? Anyway, I just want to share the lyrics here.
Bertakhta di Hati – Farahdhiya
Dihempas ombak
Terdampar buih
Menanti waktu pulang ke laut
Begitu rindu
Dipisah takdir
Meniti saat bersulam cinta
Lihat…lihat…
Ke dalam mataku
Sinarnya menyala
Lihat...lihat...
Ke dalam mataku
Cintamu bertakhta
Sebelum ku kenal
Dirimu siapa
Aku tak kenali
Apa itu cinta
Setelah ku kenal
Dirimu sebenar
Kau cinta sejati
Kusandarkan jiwa
Digilis angin
Tercarik awan
Menanti detik sebelum hujan
Begitu sendu
Diguris resah
Meniti hari bersulam tangis
Takkan berganjak pendirianku ini
Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu
Selamanya
Takkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu
Biar digugat
Biar dicabar
Biar dihalang
The last part is not like me at all. I’d rather let him free rather than just holding on hopes and trying to mend and fix the broken pieces which I would love to do that. But who am I to decide the fate of my life.
What made me laugh last night was the fact that what happened in the meeting room in Royal Adelphi was more or less like what happened in the Apex Corporation. The project leader was incompetent in making decisions. And the worst part is that she will agree on the first idea and in seconds she will change her mind to idea number two and then change her mind again and again. How can you be a manager if the members on the floor can easily change your point of view and change the whole plan? Either way, whether your idea is brilliant or not, you will always have to stick by it. And if that decision fails, you will have to take full responsibility on the decision you made. Yes, it is hard being the top manager or the person in charge of a company. People around you will say that you just boss people around. But do they know that sometimes decision has to be made in a split second? And what if the decision made turned out to be the wrong decision and failed the whole project?
Currently my office is having a black out. Wow.. great. Another day of rest. But the heat, I cannot stand. Luckily it’s raining here so, it’s a bit cool. But the humidity still wins. Anyway, like I said, being a manager requires sharp skills of forecasting. And you really need to gather as much information to make a quick but yet excellent decision. And that does not come through the bloodline (even sometimes it does) but through reading and experiencing. I believe in making mistakes to make a person perfect. That way you can always learn something new. Seldom organizations will allow their staffs to make mistakes. But one or two small mistakes are okay for me. At least the person will have to learn from it and take really cautious actions to prevent it from occurring again.
Some people in my organization think that I am totally informed and experienced in my field. Well, I think that 5 years in this department is still not enough to say that I am experienced in my field. I still need to learn a lot and make myself equipped and prepared for the unexpected. I thank them for saying that I am considered as an expert but I really do feel that I need more exposure, which I am really looking for, and really seek the opportunity in being exposed to new things, which I feel that I am overdoing it at times. Well, we have to grab anything that comes our way to gain experience because in a way, it shows our own initiative.
Okay, I just wanted to share my POV. And it is like something that I really believe in. Now I’d like to change the subject to something that is light and not that serious. I really love listening to the radio and sing. I rarely show my talent in singing. He.. he.. (like I have the talent). Nowadays, there are a lot of new comers in the industry, which sometimes when their first single is on air; I’d guess that it’s this person’s song. And then when the deejay announces the original singer, I would like be surprised. Ha??? A new clone? But when they come out with the second single etc, there would be a slight difference in the way they sing.
There is this song from Farahdhiya – Bertakhta di Hati. At first listening to the song, I thought that is was from Deja Moss. The way she ramifies sounds a bit like Deja Moss in a way. Well, back to the song – I love it! And it reflects how I feel in a way. I really hate it when this ‘feeling’ comes, but I have tried my best to diminish the feeling. Sometimes I’ll win, but at times I’d be soooo weak and I would break down and cry. So typical of me write? Anyway, I just want to share the lyrics here.
Bertakhta di Hati – Farahdhiya
Dihempas ombak
Terdampar buih
Menanti waktu pulang ke laut
Begitu rindu
Dipisah takdir
Meniti saat bersulam cinta
Lihat…lihat…
Ke dalam mataku
Sinarnya menyala
Lihat...lihat...
Ke dalam mataku
Cintamu bertakhta
Sebelum ku kenal
Dirimu siapa
Aku tak kenali
Apa itu cinta
Setelah ku kenal
Dirimu sebenar
Kau cinta sejati
Kusandarkan jiwa
Digilis angin
Tercarik awan
Menanti detik sebelum hujan
Begitu sendu
Diguris resah
Meniti hari bersulam tangis
Takkan berganjak pendirianku ini
Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu
Selamanya
Takkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu
Biar digugat
Biar dicabar
Biar dihalang
The last part is not like me at all. I’d rather let him free rather than just holding on hopes and trying to mend and fix the broken pieces which I would love to do that. But who am I to decide the fate of my life.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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