Tuesday, March 01, 2005
♥ Split Decision
Yesterday’s entry was a bit emotional. But I felt relieved after publishing that entry. Even though I didn’t say it in front of the people involved in making myself emotional, at least I have already lessen the burden of tension in my mind.
What made me laugh last night was the fact that what happened in the meeting room in Royal Adelphi was more or less like what happened in the Apex Corporation. The project leader was incompetent in making decisions. And the worst part is that she will agree on the first idea and in seconds she will change her mind to idea number two and then change her mind again and again. How can you be a manager if the members on the floor can easily change your point of view and change the whole plan? Either way, whether your idea is brilliant or not, you will always have to stick by it. And if that decision fails, you will have to take full responsibility on the decision you made. Yes, it is hard being the top manager or the person in charge of a company. People around you will say that you just boss people around. But do they know that sometimes decision has to be made in a split second? And what if the decision made turned out to be the wrong decision and failed the whole project?
Currently my office is having a black out. Wow.. great. Another day of rest. But the heat, I cannot stand. Luckily it’s raining here so, it’s a bit cool. But the humidity still wins. Anyway, like I said, being a manager requires sharp skills of forecasting. And you really need to gather as much information to make a quick but yet excellent decision. And that does not come through the bloodline (even sometimes it does) but through reading and experiencing. I believe in making mistakes to make a person perfect. That way you can always learn something new. Seldom organizations will allow their staffs to make mistakes. But one or two small mistakes are okay for me. At least the person will have to learn from it and take really cautious actions to prevent it from occurring again.
Some people in my organization think that I am totally informed and experienced in my field. Well, I think that 5 years in this department is still not enough to say that I am experienced in my field. I still need to learn a lot and make myself equipped and prepared for the unexpected. I thank them for saying that I am considered as an expert but I really do feel that I need more exposure, which I am really looking for, and really seek the opportunity in being exposed to new things, which I feel that I am overdoing it at times. Well, we have to grab anything that comes our way to gain experience because in a way, it shows our own initiative.
Okay, I just wanted to share my POV. And it is like something that I really believe in. Now I’d like to change the subject to something that is light and not that serious. I really love listening to the radio and sing. I rarely show my talent in singing. He.. he.. (like I have the talent). Nowadays, there are a lot of new comers in the industry, which sometimes when their first single is on air; I’d guess that it’s this person’s song. And then when the deejay announces the original singer, I would like be surprised. Ha??? A new clone? But when they come out with the second single etc, there would be a slight difference in the way they sing.
There is this song from Farahdhiya – Bertakhta di Hati. At first listening to the song, I thought that is was from Deja Moss. The way she ramifies sounds a bit like Deja Moss in a way. Well, back to the song – I love it! And it reflects how I feel in a way. I really hate it when this ‘feeling’ comes, but I have tried my best to diminish the feeling. Sometimes I’ll win, but at times I’d be soooo weak and I would break down and cry. So typical of me write? Anyway, I just want to share the lyrics here.
Bertakhta di Hati – Farahdhiya
Dihempas ombak
Terdampar buih
Menanti waktu pulang ke laut
Begitu rindu
Dipisah takdir
Meniti saat bersulam cinta
Lihat…lihat…
Ke dalam mataku
Sinarnya menyala
Lihat...lihat...
Ke dalam mataku
Cintamu bertakhta
Sebelum ku kenal
Dirimu siapa
Aku tak kenali
Apa itu cinta
Setelah ku kenal
Dirimu sebenar
Kau cinta sejati
Kusandarkan jiwa
Digilis angin
Tercarik awan
Menanti detik sebelum hujan
Begitu sendu
Diguris resah
Meniti hari bersulam tangis
Takkan berganjak pendirianku ini
Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu
Selamanya
Takkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu
Biar digugat
Biar dicabar
Biar dihalang
The last part is not like me at all. I’d rather let him free rather than just holding on hopes and trying to mend and fix the broken pieces which I would love to do that. But who am I to decide the fate of my life.
What made me laugh last night was the fact that what happened in the meeting room in Royal Adelphi was more or less like what happened in the Apex Corporation. The project leader was incompetent in making decisions. And the worst part is that she will agree on the first idea and in seconds she will change her mind to idea number two and then change her mind again and again. How can you be a manager if the members on the floor can easily change your point of view and change the whole plan? Either way, whether your idea is brilliant or not, you will always have to stick by it. And if that decision fails, you will have to take full responsibility on the decision you made. Yes, it is hard being the top manager or the person in charge of a company. People around you will say that you just boss people around. But do they know that sometimes decision has to be made in a split second? And what if the decision made turned out to be the wrong decision and failed the whole project?
Currently my office is having a black out. Wow.. great. Another day of rest. But the heat, I cannot stand. Luckily it’s raining here so, it’s a bit cool. But the humidity still wins. Anyway, like I said, being a manager requires sharp skills of forecasting. And you really need to gather as much information to make a quick but yet excellent decision. And that does not come through the bloodline (even sometimes it does) but through reading and experiencing. I believe in making mistakes to make a person perfect. That way you can always learn something new. Seldom organizations will allow their staffs to make mistakes. But one or two small mistakes are okay for me. At least the person will have to learn from it and take really cautious actions to prevent it from occurring again.
Some people in my organization think that I am totally informed and experienced in my field. Well, I think that 5 years in this department is still not enough to say that I am experienced in my field. I still need to learn a lot and make myself equipped and prepared for the unexpected. I thank them for saying that I am considered as an expert but I really do feel that I need more exposure, which I am really looking for, and really seek the opportunity in being exposed to new things, which I feel that I am overdoing it at times. Well, we have to grab anything that comes our way to gain experience because in a way, it shows our own initiative.
Okay, I just wanted to share my POV. And it is like something that I really believe in. Now I’d like to change the subject to something that is light and not that serious. I really love listening to the radio and sing. I rarely show my talent in singing. He.. he.. (like I have the talent). Nowadays, there are a lot of new comers in the industry, which sometimes when their first single is on air; I’d guess that it’s this person’s song. And then when the deejay announces the original singer, I would like be surprised. Ha??? A new clone? But when they come out with the second single etc, there would be a slight difference in the way they sing.
There is this song from Farahdhiya – Bertakhta di Hati. At first listening to the song, I thought that is was from Deja Moss. The way she ramifies sounds a bit like Deja Moss in a way. Well, back to the song – I love it! And it reflects how I feel in a way. I really hate it when this ‘feeling’ comes, but I have tried my best to diminish the feeling. Sometimes I’ll win, but at times I’d be soooo weak and I would break down and cry. So typical of me write? Anyway, I just want to share the lyrics here.
Bertakhta di Hati – Farahdhiya
Dihempas ombak
Terdampar buih
Menanti waktu pulang ke laut
Begitu rindu
Dipisah takdir
Meniti saat bersulam cinta
Lihat…lihat…
Ke dalam mataku
Sinarnya menyala
Lihat...lihat...
Ke dalam mataku
Cintamu bertakhta
Sebelum ku kenal
Dirimu siapa
Aku tak kenali
Apa itu cinta
Setelah ku kenal
Dirimu sebenar
Kau cinta sejati
Kusandarkan jiwa
Digilis angin
Tercarik awan
Menanti detik sebelum hujan
Begitu sendu
Diguris resah
Meniti hari bersulam tangis
Takkan berganjak pendirianku ini
Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu
Selamanya
Takkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu
Biar digugat
Biar dicabar
Biar dihalang
The last part is not like me at all. I’d rather let him free rather than just holding on hopes and trying to mend and fix the broken pieces which I would love to do that. But who am I to decide the fate of my life.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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