Monday, September 04, 2006
♥ When Training Fires Up Your Spirit...
Last Wednesday, I was somewhat demotivated by some incidents in the office. I really chose to change my style. I thought that it was the time to change since I have done everything to make everything fall into place. But it doesn't seem to work. And I feel like giving up.
On 31st of August, I had to work just to finish the minute of the meeting held on Wednesday since on Friday - the next day, I had a seminar to attend in Penang. And I was somewhat looking forward to go as it was some kind of a break for me and giving me time to relax and replenish my spirits after it was shattered on Wednesday. So, I finished up the report and minute and went back to pack my things.
To make things worse, I kind of missed my flight to Penang the next day. I guess that my mind was elsewhere and not that focused. My spirits was still down and my mood was a bit distracted. And the cause - I had to pay the penalty to change flights. There goes RM75. But I guess I was numb inside. So, I just had no feelings at all.
Everything else went as accordingly but due to missing my flight, I also missed the transportation provided by the organizers of the seminar which means I had to pay myself. Well, that's what happens when your mind is elsewhere and something is bothering you.
Okay, during the seminar, my mind kind of sparked and started working. Not that I am saying that when I work, my mind sleeps. But it doesn't function like it used to. Like the critical thinking and inquisitivity. I miss being the person who would raise up questions that were kind of rebellious types disagreeing with the points given. Not to say that I am rebellious, but it seems that we can't just absorb everything in one gulp. Sometimes we have to make our minds work a bit. As I have read once, when you work up your mind, you will enhance the life of the brain.
I did enjoy the seminar. I mean what more can you learn if not by sharing your experiences with one another right? Names like Prof. Ibrahim Ahmad Bajunid whom I have never met and only reading his columns in the papers, Stephen Healy - MD of Active Minds and the VC of USM himself with ideas that made me think critically of what I have contributed to my employer.
Being an administrator in the education industry sometimes make people underestimate your workload and sometimes your stand and position among the academicians just because you don't have the title as Professor or Dr. If you are not born with the talent to speak and persuade others, your thoughts might just go to the waste bin.
Some leaders or managers are born with the talent to talk and do their work efficiently. But these kind are quite rare. Some are only capable of talking, persuading and giving brilliant ideas. And some are just good at planning and working behind the scenes without highlighting what has been done by them. And the rest, just commenting and criticizing other people's work without knowing that they did nothing to contribute but just empty talk. Well, people are born that way. I am neither the perfect manager nor the brilliant talker. I just do what I can in the most perfect way I can.
In social aspects, some tend to seek popularity. Some tend to just mingle with the normal social circle. And some just like to be the lone ranger. I would put myself in the second category. But I do expand my circle of friends. The problem is when to start, I get a bit nervous and usually think of what people may think about me - especially the negative thoughts.
Am I too self- concious? Probably. Inferiority feeling? I guess so. But I am trying to put all those feelings aside. I am taking a step forward in improving myself in what ever way that I can.
Back to the seminar, 95% of the participants are administrators in the education industry. I can say that all of them are officers. But the participants behind me does not act like officers. They acted more like school drop outs. Sorry to say but when in a seminar like that, people would like to learn and listen and not divert their attention to you sms-ing other people with the beeping sound from your keypad that irritates and bugs your concentration. Be considerate. I know that the particular participants were from Univerisiti Utara Malaysia - which I am the alumni of. Sadly to say, when people hear that one is from UUM which is known as the management university where graduates tend to be looked up when coming to managing a company etc, people expect that you know how to carry yourself. I mean UUM is like a training center for managers. So, behave like one. I pledged to myself that I would blog about those guys in the seminar and reveal where they are from.
I did learn a lot from this seminar. And sharing experiences and getting to know your peers from other institutions is a plus added advantage. You get to widen your circle of friends and start networking with them. And the best part, there are lots of cute guys to meet. Hehehe.. just wish that I had the courage to do what she did. :)
On 31st of August, I had to work just to finish the minute of the meeting held on Wednesday since on Friday - the next day, I had a seminar to attend in Penang. And I was somewhat looking forward to go as it was some kind of a break for me and giving me time to relax and replenish my spirits after it was shattered on Wednesday. So, I finished up the report and minute and went back to pack my things.
To make things worse, I kind of missed my flight to Penang the next day. I guess that my mind was elsewhere and not that focused. My spirits was still down and my mood was a bit distracted. And the cause - I had to pay the penalty to change flights. There goes RM75. But I guess I was numb inside. So, I just had no feelings at all.
Everything else went as accordingly but due to missing my flight, I also missed the transportation provided by the organizers of the seminar which means I had to pay myself. Well, that's what happens when your mind is elsewhere and something is bothering you.
Okay, during the seminar, my mind kind of sparked and started working. Not that I am saying that when I work, my mind sleeps. But it doesn't function like it used to. Like the critical thinking and inquisitivity. I miss being the person who would raise up questions that were kind of rebellious types disagreeing with the points given. Not to say that I am rebellious, but it seems that we can't just absorb everything in one gulp. Sometimes we have to make our minds work a bit. As I have read once, when you work up your mind, you will enhance the life of the brain.
I did enjoy the seminar. I mean what more can you learn if not by sharing your experiences with one another right? Names like Prof. Ibrahim Ahmad Bajunid whom I have never met and only reading his columns in the papers, Stephen Healy - MD of Active Minds and the VC of USM himself with ideas that made me think critically of what I have contributed to my employer.
Being an administrator in the education industry sometimes make people underestimate your workload and sometimes your stand and position among the academicians just because you don't have the title as Professor or Dr. If you are not born with the talent to speak and persuade others, your thoughts might just go to the waste bin.
Some leaders or managers are born with the talent to talk and do their work efficiently. But these kind are quite rare. Some are only capable of talking, persuading and giving brilliant ideas. And some are just good at planning and working behind the scenes without highlighting what has been done by them. And the rest, just commenting and criticizing other people's work without knowing that they did nothing to contribute but just empty talk. Well, people are born that way. I am neither the perfect manager nor the brilliant talker. I just do what I can in the most perfect way I can.
In social aspects, some tend to seek popularity. Some tend to just mingle with the normal social circle. And some just like to be the lone ranger. I would put myself in the second category. But I do expand my circle of friends. The problem is when to start, I get a bit nervous and usually think of what people may think about me - especially the negative thoughts.
Am I too self- concious? Probably. Inferiority feeling? I guess so. But I am trying to put all those feelings aside. I am taking a step forward in improving myself in what ever way that I can.
Back to the seminar, 95% of the participants are administrators in the education industry. I can say that all of them are officers. But the participants behind me does not act like officers. They acted more like school drop outs. Sorry to say but when in a seminar like that, people would like to learn and listen and not divert their attention to you sms-ing other people with the beeping sound from your keypad that irritates and bugs your concentration. Be considerate. I know that the particular participants were from Univerisiti Utara Malaysia - which I am the alumni of. Sadly to say, when people hear that one is from UUM which is known as the management university where graduates tend to be looked up when coming to managing a company etc, people expect that you know how to carry yourself. I mean UUM is like a training center for managers. So, behave like one. I pledged to myself that I would blog about those guys in the seminar and reveal where they are from.
I did learn a lot from this seminar. And sharing experiences and getting to know your peers from other institutions is a plus added advantage. You get to widen your circle of friends and start networking with them. And the best part, there are lots of cute guys to meet. Hehehe.. just wish that I had the courage to do what she did. :)
Am i really never good enough for you?
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