Friday, May 12, 2006
♥ Mixed emotions.. again
I came back from Langkawi with memories. I really enjoyed the trip but at the same time, I was still feeling down and sad. I know that I have been trying to cover up my feelings and it did help at the time. But when I am alone again, I would feel insecured and extremely sad that I would break down and cry.
The holiday somewhat made me leave behind those feelings. I was really hoping to go and sit by the beach watching the sunset and feel as though I would be leaving the feelings and burden behind as if the sun setting is taking all the things away. I never did had the chance to watch the sunset at the beach. But I got a more spectacular view of the sun setting from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang. The view was spectacular and it mesmerized me. At least, getting down from the Cable Car, I felt a big burden and most of the pain that I have been keeping inside my heart drift away.
The mesmerizing sunset from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang
On that same night, I managed to spend 3 hours (at midnight) by the beach with a couple of friends. I sat there admiring the stars and the waves. I sat there alone trying to leave all my feelings behind. Even people around me wanted me to talk about it, spill the pain and hurt in my heart, but I just could not say anything. So, the best way was to leave it all behind and let it go by just letting the waves 'hypnotize' me.
Eventhough I kind of left all my problems and feelings behind at the mountain top and the beach, once I reached my room, I still could not sleep. I tossed around and managed to sleep at 4am! I woke up again at 6.30 am. But I felt energetic even with a little sleep.
I enjoyed the trip to the end and the best part was singing a duet with someone during the karaokeing session and after that, I just could not let go of the microphone!
Well, one thing for sure, I enjoyed every bit of the trip. And I really loved the support and kindness people around me showered me while I was trying to forget the pain especially that person - my best friend. A million thanks to all of you guys for the support and love - you know who you are.
Well, I guess I am going to start fresh here. And this song kind of reminds me of the new, fresh start.
Mulanya Di Sini
Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Antara kita berdua
Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu
Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini
Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
I hope I can still stay strong especially tomorrow - the big test for me. Wish me luck!
p/s: More pics of Langkawi here.
The holiday somewhat made me leave behind those feelings. I was really hoping to go and sit by the beach watching the sunset and feel as though I would be leaving the feelings and burden behind as if the sun setting is taking all the things away. I never did had the chance to watch the sunset at the beach. But I got a more spectacular view of the sun setting from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang. The view was spectacular and it mesmerized me. At least, getting down from the Cable Car, I felt a big burden and most of the pain that I have been keeping inside my heart drift away.
The mesmerizing sunset from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang
On that same night, I managed to spend 3 hours (at midnight) by the beach with a couple of friends. I sat there admiring the stars and the waves. I sat there alone trying to leave all my feelings behind. Even people around me wanted me to talk about it, spill the pain and hurt in my heart, but I just could not say anything. So, the best way was to leave it all behind and let it go by just letting the waves 'hypnotize' me.
Eventhough I kind of left all my problems and feelings behind at the mountain top and the beach, once I reached my room, I still could not sleep. I tossed around and managed to sleep at 4am! I woke up again at 6.30 am. But I felt energetic even with a little sleep.
I enjoyed the trip to the end and the best part was singing a duet with someone during the karaokeing session and after that, I just could not let go of the microphone!
Well, one thing for sure, I enjoyed every bit of the trip. And I really loved the support and kindness people around me showered me while I was trying to forget the pain especially that person - my best friend. A million thanks to all of you guys for the support and love - you know who you are.
Well, I guess I am going to start fresh here. And this song kind of reminds me of the new, fresh start.
Mulanya Di Sini
Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Antara kita berdua
Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu
Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini
Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
I hope I can still stay strong especially tomorrow - the big test for me. Wish me luck!
p/s: More pics of Langkawi here.
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