Wednesday, May 31, 2006
♥ What If....
Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
This song by Kate Winslet has been in my head for quite sometime. I love the lyrics as if it is what I have been wondering for these past days. The first time I heard this song was from WTL's blog. I fell in love with this song instantly. And now, I am wondering about the lyrics. A story that I see and somewhat know clearly. *Sigh*
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
This song by Kate Winslet has been in my head for quite sometime. I love the lyrics as if it is what I have been wondering for these past days. The first time I heard this song was from WTL's blog. I fell in love with this song instantly. And now, I am wondering about the lyrics. A story that I see and somewhat know clearly. *Sigh*
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, May 19, 2006
♥ Held My Head High
Remember the post saying that I had a big test coming last Saturday? Well guess what, after weeks and weeks of sobbing and crying, I managed to pull through the big test and held my head high throughout the test. It was unbelievable. After the test, I managed to laugh and joke around and said that I never imagined that it would turn out to be not bad at all.
Maybe some of you might be wondering what test that I had to face, but one thing for sure, it kind of felt like the first obstacle to a mid-life crisis. Mid-life crisis? I guess more to the early stages of life's crisis. Never have I imagined that one could easily change and be more independent after facing obstacles and manage to get through.
One thing for sure, I am truly proud of myself.
On a lighter note, after facing the test and managed to get through, I kind of celebrated the victory by attending my classmate's wedding in Malacca. It was a beautiful wedding and finding the place wasn't that hard. The groom was my classmate from form 4 to form 5 and the bride was our junior.
The bride was superbly beautiful and had a resemblance to Nurul Alis, the newscaster from RTM 1. The groom was tall and handsome and they really made a stunning couple.
Anyway, congratulations to both of you - Che' Lon and Anne. Semoga kekal bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat.
p/s: Jangan marah ye saya publish gambar kawin you guys. More to come at my fotopages.
Maybe some of you might be wondering what test that I had to face, but one thing for sure, it kind of felt like the first obstacle to a mid-life crisis. Mid-life crisis? I guess more to the early stages of life's crisis. Never have I imagined that one could easily change and be more independent after facing obstacles and manage to get through.
One thing for sure, I am truly proud of myself.
On a lighter note, after facing the test and managed to get through, I kind of celebrated the victory by attending my classmate's wedding in Malacca. It was a beautiful wedding and finding the place wasn't that hard. The groom was my classmate from form 4 to form 5 and the bride was our junior.
The bride was superbly beautiful and had a resemblance to Nurul Alis, the newscaster from RTM 1. The groom was tall and handsome and they really made a stunning couple.
Anyway, congratulations to both of you - Che' Lon and Anne. Semoga kekal bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat.
p/s: Jangan marah ye saya publish gambar kawin you guys. More to come at my fotopages.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
♥ A Lost Felt
I know that I may be late in publishing this entry. But I was on leave the last 2 days and I was shocked to receive the news of Emy yesterday. Emy had passed away.
Emy was one of the first blogger friends that I had. We met at Y's blog and also Javard's blog to share our opinion and views especially about AF. Another memory that I have about her is the shared opinion about Mencari Cinta. I'd call her up or sms her about contestants that got the boot. I remember her favourite was Daniel.
We never met but she seemed like a close friend to me. I remember her calling me while I was in Perlis for my high school reunion and thought of meeting up but I was in a hurry. So, the next time she was in KL, we tried to fix a date but unfortunately I had to go to PD for a seminar.
Her lost is truly felt and if I had known sooner, I would have paid a visit to her family on Monday since I was up north again.
Semoga roh Emy ditempatkan bersama-sama orang beriman. Alfatihah.
Emy was one of the first blogger friends that I had. We met at Y's blog and also Javard's blog to share our opinion and views especially about AF. Another memory that I have about her is the shared opinion about Mencari Cinta. I'd call her up or sms her about contestants that got the boot. I remember her favourite was Daniel.
We never met but she seemed like a close friend to me. I remember her calling me while I was in Perlis for my high school reunion and thought of meeting up but I was in a hurry. So, the next time she was in KL, we tried to fix a date but unfortunately I had to go to PD for a seminar.
Her lost is truly felt and if I had known sooner, I would have paid a visit to her family on Monday since I was up north again.
Semoga roh Emy ditempatkan bersama-sama orang beriman. Alfatihah.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, May 12, 2006
♥ Mixed emotions.. again
I came back from Langkawi with memories. I really enjoyed the trip but at the same time, I was still feeling down and sad. I know that I have been trying to cover up my feelings and it did help at the time. But when I am alone again, I would feel insecured and extremely sad that I would break down and cry.
The holiday somewhat made me leave behind those feelings. I was really hoping to go and sit by the beach watching the sunset and feel as though I would be leaving the feelings and burden behind as if the sun setting is taking all the things away. I never did had the chance to watch the sunset at the beach. But I got a more spectacular view of the sun setting from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang. The view was spectacular and it mesmerized me. At least, getting down from the Cable Car, I felt a big burden and most of the pain that I have been keeping inside my heart drift away.
The mesmerizing sunset from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang
On that same night, I managed to spend 3 hours (at midnight) by the beach with a couple of friends. I sat there admiring the stars and the waves. I sat there alone trying to leave all my feelings behind. Even people around me wanted me to talk about it, spill the pain and hurt in my heart, but I just could not say anything. So, the best way was to leave it all behind and let it go by just letting the waves 'hypnotize' me.
Eventhough I kind of left all my problems and feelings behind at the mountain top and the beach, once I reached my room, I still could not sleep. I tossed around and managed to sleep at 4am! I woke up again at 6.30 am. But I felt energetic even with a little sleep.
I enjoyed the trip to the end and the best part was singing a duet with someone during the karaokeing session and after that, I just could not let go of the microphone!
Well, one thing for sure, I enjoyed every bit of the trip. And I really loved the support and kindness people around me showered me while I was trying to forget the pain especially that person - my best friend. A million thanks to all of you guys for the support and love - you know who you are.
Well, I guess I am going to start fresh here. And this song kind of reminds me of the new, fresh start.
Mulanya Di Sini
Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Antara kita berdua
Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu
Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini
Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
I hope I can still stay strong especially tomorrow - the big test for me. Wish me luck!
p/s: More pics of Langkawi here.
The holiday somewhat made me leave behind those feelings. I was really hoping to go and sit by the beach watching the sunset and feel as though I would be leaving the feelings and burden behind as if the sun setting is taking all the things away. I never did had the chance to watch the sunset at the beach. But I got a more spectacular view of the sun setting from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang. The view was spectacular and it mesmerized me. At least, getting down from the Cable Car, I felt a big burden and most of the pain that I have been keeping inside my heart drift away.
The mesmerizing sunset from the top of Bukit Mat Cincang
On that same night, I managed to spend 3 hours (at midnight) by the beach with a couple of friends. I sat there admiring the stars and the waves. I sat there alone trying to leave all my feelings behind. Even people around me wanted me to talk about it, spill the pain and hurt in my heart, but I just could not say anything. So, the best way was to leave it all behind and let it go by just letting the waves 'hypnotize' me.
Eventhough I kind of left all my problems and feelings behind at the mountain top and the beach, once I reached my room, I still could not sleep. I tossed around and managed to sleep at 4am! I woke up again at 6.30 am. But I felt energetic even with a little sleep.
I enjoyed the trip to the end and the best part was singing a duet with someone during the karaokeing session and after that, I just could not let go of the microphone!
Well, one thing for sure, I enjoyed every bit of the trip. And I really loved the support and kindness people around me showered me while I was trying to forget the pain especially that person - my best friend. A million thanks to all of you guys for the support and love - you know who you are.
Well, I guess I am going to start fresh here. And this song kind of reminds me of the new, fresh start.
Mulanya Di Sini
Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Antara kita berdua
Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu
Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini
Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai
I hope I can still stay strong especially tomorrow - the big test for me. Wish me luck!
p/s: More pics of Langkawi here.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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