Monday, December 19, 2005
♥ Responsibility
Being the eldest in the family is a big responsibility. Even though I have younger brothers, but being the only person in the family that has finished studying and started work is a huge difference. I know that my mom is still working but I feel that being the eldest, I'd like to ensure everything is comfortable.
My dad just flew to Makkah yesterday. Before leaving, he managed to leave a few things for me to take care at home. Not that he does not rely on my mom, but he said that my mom would often forget things. There was one thing that made my mom, my youngest brother and I cried. He said that my youngest brother would be the 'leader' of the house during his absence and if my dad is destined to never return, take care of the family.
I know that people will always leave those kind of nasihat to their spouses before leaving for Haj. But listening to my father yesterday made me feel uneasy and started to cry and imagine things that I should have not imagined. It really made my mom and I sad for the whole evening. My mom would just sit at the dining table and one moment, she'd be smiling and then she'd start crying. I had to tell her stories to get her mind off the things my dad said.
It is sure a big responsibility for me. I have to make sure everything is in order and find solutions to problems that I'd be facing. And am I prepared for all those? Please let me be able to sort things out during my dad's absence. Please let me be strong enough to handle all the matters that need to be settled. I leave it all in the hands of Allah for He will help me out when I am lost.
My dad just flew to Makkah yesterday. Before leaving, he managed to leave a few things for me to take care at home. Not that he does not rely on my mom, but he said that my mom would often forget things. There was one thing that made my mom, my youngest brother and I cried. He said that my youngest brother would be the 'leader' of the house during his absence and if my dad is destined to never return, take care of the family.
I know that people will always leave those kind of nasihat to their spouses before leaving for Haj. But listening to my father yesterday made me feel uneasy and started to cry and imagine things that I should have not imagined. It really made my mom and I sad for the whole evening. My mom would just sit at the dining table and one moment, she'd be smiling and then she'd start crying. I had to tell her stories to get her mind off the things my dad said.
It is sure a big responsibility for me. I have to make sure everything is in order and find solutions to problems that I'd be facing. And am I prepared for all those? Please let me be able to sort things out during my dad's absence. Please let me be strong enough to handle all the matters that need to be settled. I leave it all in the hands of Allah for He will help me out when I am lost.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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