Thursday, June 30, 2005
♥ Kuch Kuch Hota Hai
Yesterday, in accordance with TV3's birthday bash celebration, TV3 aired Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Yippie! I really love this movie eventhough I have watched this movie a billion times. I was really into hindi movies during the era of Dil to Pagal Hai and Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. The first hindi movie that made me addicted to hindi movies was Kuch Kuch Hota Hai.
I was in university during the time the film was a hit. I really loved the songs and the dance steps. So, last night, a lot of memories came rushing back to my head. Those were the days. I was really looking forward to watching Kuch Kuch Hota Hai for the 100th time I guess.
So, last night, after Akademi Fantasia and CSI, I was glued in front of my tv with a box of Kleenex for the 'best' moments. I also eagerly smsed my friends who performed the Koi Mil Gaya song in our college.
I was crying like I have never watched the movie before. The best part was when Rahul elaborated about what love meant to him. And the way he liked Anjali as a friend because of her inner beauty. The part which made me cried non-stop was the train scene. He..he.. Well, that's me. I will cry when something touches my heart and touches a soft spot in me. And I will laugh my heart out when something really funny happens. That is me. But if it has something to do with hurt, either me hurting anyone's feelings of people hurting my feelings, I would try as best as I could to cover it up. Meaning that if I know that saying a thing will break a person's heart or hurt someone, I would try my best to make it not so harsh or hurt that person's feeling or sometimes not say anything at all. Call it hypocrite or not being honest, but I know how people feel when they are hurt. Unless I am really good friends with that person, then I will tell the truth and try to make them taking the comments positively.
It goes the same with me when I am being hurt by anyone. I would just try to take it as happy as I can be but deep down, I may suffer. I won't let my feelings show on my face. But later on, I will rationalize what has been said and accept what they think of me. That's me. I can't change that. But I know that maybe some of you may not agree on what I do but that is just me.
Pyar dostahe - Love is friendship.
I was in university during the time the film was a hit. I really loved the songs and the dance steps. So, last night, a lot of memories came rushing back to my head. Those were the days. I was really looking forward to watching Kuch Kuch Hota Hai for the 100th time I guess.
So, last night, after Akademi Fantasia and CSI, I was glued in front of my tv with a box of Kleenex for the 'best' moments. I also eagerly smsed my friends who performed the Koi Mil Gaya song in our college.
I was crying like I have never watched the movie before. The best part was when Rahul elaborated about what love meant to him. And the way he liked Anjali as a friend because of her inner beauty. The part which made me cried non-stop was the train scene. He..he.. Well, that's me. I will cry when something touches my heart and touches a soft spot in me. And I will laugh my heart out when something really funny happens. That is me. But if it has something to do with hurt, either me hurting anyone's feelings of people hurting my feelings, I would try as best as I could to cover it up. Meaning that if I know that saying a thing will break a person's heart or hurt someone, I would try my best to make it not so harsh or hurt that person's feeling or sometimes not say anything at all. Call it hypocrite or not being honest, but I know how people feel when they are hurt. Unless I am really good friends with that person, then I will tell the truth and try to make them taking the comments positively.
It goes the same with me when I am being hurt by anyone. I would just try to take it as happy as I can be but deep down, I may suffer. I won't let my feelings show on my face. But later on, I will rationalize what has been said and accept what they think of me. That's me. I can't change that. But I know that maybe some of you may not agree on what I do but that is just me.
Pyar dostahe - Love is friendship.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Monday, June 27, 2005
♥ Girlfriends vs Boyfriends
Yeeehaaa... starting this week, people at the government sector will only have to work 5 days a week. And the best part was the way I had to celebrate my last working Saturday with having to attend a course for a whole day! Anyway I enjoyed the course so much that I didn't even realize it was already 5 o'clock. And I was like 'oh my God... I have a football match to cheer!!'
So, I gathered up all my things and went straight to the field in Mardi. Arriving there, only then I realize that I was in my baju kurung. I felt like wanita melayu terakhir yang paling ayu at the field. Due to my attire, kat tepi padang pun duduk bersimpuh sebab dah ayu sangat kan. Ha..ha.. Anyway, when I arrived, I met my friends and watched the match. The thing was that we lost the match but had a great time watching them play even I was scratching all over because sitting at the field tanpa alas apa-apa. But I maintained ayu la.
Actually, I was there with my other girlfriends to cheer a classmate who was representing Anseri in the game. One of the best friend ever that I had. It's not that we're not best friends anymore, but it seems that we have grown apart from each other with our busy lives.
I guess most of you have watched My Best Friend's Wedding right? The part where Julianne (Julia Roberts) was best friends with the handsome Micheal (Dermot Mulroney). My friendship with that person was almost like the friendship between Julianne and Micheal but takdela pulak berjanji akan kahwin dengan masing-masing kalau by 28 kami tak kahwin!
The friendship is a sincere friendship where we can tell anything to that person. It is actually different between a girlfriend and a boyfriend as a best friend. The bond is like you can be yourself and be a bit b*tchy with guys because they won't say anything. Well not infront of your face though.
I knew this guy since 1994. It has been 10 years and we have been best friends since 1997. And I can share almost anything with him and he will share anything with me and that includes his encounter with somebody's wife who really liked him more than she was supposed to and he was nearly sued by the husband. On my side, I would share everything including my personal problems. I know that I can count on him and he would be there for me anytime I have anything on my mind and vice versa.
Everything changed after sometime. We have been busy living our lives and sometimes I would feel like I would bother him if I call him. I know that it is not so true but I have a feeling that he does feel that way. Anyway, after I knew that he would be playing for Anseri, I just wanted to go there and watch him play. Usually I would inform him if there was any event organized and if I'd be joining the event as well. But since early this year, I have not contacted him at all! I was hurt somewhere in our friendship. So, there I was last Saturday at the football field cheering and giving support to the players and then I saw him directly infront of me in the field with his jersey on and running in the field trying to score a goal for our team.
Suddenly a feeling of guilt, hurt, happy, glad, and all the sweet memories came to my mind in a flash. It was as though I was watching a playback of our friendship in my mind. I was indeed happy and at the same time sad. I was torn between a lot of different feelings in my heart. But as people say, the women's ego is sometime bigger than the men's ego.
I knew he spotted me at the field. After the game, I got up and headed to my car. My friends wanted to get a head start back because they wanted to catch the AF concert and they had to go back to Subang. I followed them as it was nearly Maghrib and my curfew time was almost up. As I was walking towards my car with my friends, I stole a few glances towards him. He had changed his clothes and apart of me wanted to call out to him. But the ego part of me said not to. So I didn't call out to him.
As we were about to arrive at the place he was standing (there was a fence and an drain separating us), as if he sensed me there, he turned his head and caught me in one of my glances at him. I quickly avoided any eye contact with him but I felt bad by doing that. I then looked back at him and his face was quite hurt and he was taken aback by my action but he covered it up by smiling at me and I responsed by pointing at my friends and he nodded. I called out at my friends and they exchanged smiles and waves. He asked us to wait for him and on of my friend said that they wanted to hurry up and went on walking. Another friend chased us and stopped us before reaching our cars. We stopped for a while and then he caught up with us. He said hi and asked us out for drinks. But I was really heading back and my friends insisted that they had to get on their way to catch the AF concert. I didn't have any stregth to return his gaze.
My friends' car arrived since one of their friend who was just accompanying them to the match went to get their car. So, they were busy telling him that their car has arrived and they wanted to get on their way. I just did not say anything to him and went to salam my girlfriends before heading to my car.
As I drove back (and there is only one way out), I saw him standing at his car and looking at his friends who were still in the field laughing and talking with their friends. I just drove back home thinking of him and what went wrong. Was I being very egoistic and sensitive tak bertempat? But I knew that I had been hurt so much eventhough at times I know that he never meant to hurt my feelings. I just told myself to 'disappear' from his world. And I guess I did follow my heart and disappeared.
I arrived at home that evening and settled myself for the concert. I was trying to enjoy the concert but the thing was that I kept remembering my best friend and what I did at the field. I know that before this, we would sms each other after meeting one another anywhere. But that night I thought that I am not going to sms him or even appologize to him on my behaviour. See how egoistic a women can be? I was really listening to my ego. As I was staring blankly at the tv watching the AF consert, my handphone started beeping as an sms appeared. It turned out to be HIM. I was touched and a bit glad and happy. I replied but cut it short. Usually, I would reply lots of things and joke around with him. But my ego won. I just replied in brief and in an instant he replied back. I was suddenly in tears since I really miss talking to him and how bad I wanted to talk for hours with him and pour out all my problems. But I chose not to and stood still with my desicion.
I was really glad that he smsed me. It was like the ending of My Best Friend's Wedding when Julianne waited for Micheal to say goodbye and she saw that he had left for his honeymoon. But then Micheal tapped her shoulder as she was walking away from the crowd bidding her farewell before his honeymoon. That was really sweet and that was how I felt that night after receiving his sms.
We are still friends though. But I will just leave it to time to heal my wounds. And that's the difference with girlfriends. They will notice the change in you or your feelings because we are sensitive. Eventhough sometimes you are a bit secretive of personal things, but when your mood changes or you have been hurt, girlfriends will spot the difference in a second. Unlike boyfriends, it will just be small matter until you open up to them about how you feel.
This song has been lingering in my head since last concert and has been playing on my pc today and only this song, not the whole album. Maybe I am feeling like this song has something to do with what I am feeling now.
Tiada Lagi Tangisan
Kini telah lama kita berpisah
Rintihan asmara kian berubah
Tiada lagi mengharap
Tiada lagi belaian manjamu
Semua telah berakhir
Ketenangan hidup menyinariku
Keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
Tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduri
Aku mengenali siapakah diriku yang sebenarnya
Tiada lagi tangisan
Tiada lagi airmata
Membasahi jiwa luka
Yang tinggal hanya memori duka
Semuanya diduga
Pertemuan kali ini
Takkan berkekalan
Berakhirnya istana bahagia
Biarkanlah diriku keseorangan
Tak perlu lagi cinta yang menghiris luka
Titisan airmata kini kekeringan
Tak perlu menabur kasihmu
Ketenangan hidup menyinariku
Keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
Tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduri
Ku mengenali siapakah diriku yang sebenarnya
Dan kini tertutup jendela harapan ini
Kau yang menanti kepangkuan aku
Semua takdir yang telah ku temu
Akan ku rela segalanya tanpamu
I will just have to wait and see where my feelings will bring me. But one thing for sure, I really miss those times.
So, I gathered up all my things and went straight to the field in Mardi. Arriving there, only then I realize that I was in my baju kurung. I felt like wanita melayu terakhir yang paling ayu at the field. Due to my attire, kat tepi padang pun duduk bersimpuh sebab dah ayu sangat kan. Ha..ha.. Anyway, when I arrived, I met my friends and watched the match. The thing was that we lost the match but had a great time watching them play even I was scratching all over because sitting at the field tanpa alas apa-apa. But I maintained ayu la.
Actually, I was there with my other girlfriends to cheer a classmate who was representing Anseri in the game. One of the best friend ever that I had. It's not that we're not best friends anymore, but it seems that we have grown apart from each other with our busy lives.
I guess most of you have watched My Best Friend's Wedding right? The part where Julianne (Julia Roberts) was best friends with the handsome Micheal (Dermot Mulroney). My friendship with that person was almost like the friendship between Julianne and Micheal but takdela pulak berjanji akan kahwin dengan masing-masing kalau by 28 kami tak kahwin!
The friendship is a sincere friendship where we can tell anything to that person. It is actually different between a girlfriend and a boyfriend as a best friend. The bond is like you can be yourself and be a bit b*tchy with guys because they won't say anything. Well not infront of your face though.
I knew this guy since 1994. It has been 10 years and we have been best friends since 1997. And I can share almost anything with him and he will share anything with me and that includes his encounter with somebody's wife who really liked him more than she was supposed to and he was nearly sued by the husband. On my side, I would share everything including my personal problems. I know that I can count on him and he would be there for me anytime I have anything on my mind and vice versa.
Everything changed after sometime. We have been busy living our lives and sometimes I would feel like I would bother him if I call him. I know that it is not so true but I have a feeling that he does feel that way. Anyway, after I knew that he would be playing for Anseri, I just wanted to go there and watch him play. Usually I would inform him if there was any event organized and if I'd be joining the event as well. But since early this year, I have not contacted him at all! I was hurt somewhere in our friendship. So, there I was last Saturday at the football field cheering and giving support to the players and then I saw him directly infront of me in the field with his jersey on and running in the field trying to score a goal for our team.
Suddenly a feeling of guilt, hurt, happy, glad, and all the sweet memories came to my mind in a flash. It was as though I was watching a playback of our friendship in my mind. I was indeed happy and at the same time sad. I was torn between a lot of different feelings in my heart. But as people say, the women's ego is sometime bigger than the men's ego.
I knew he spotted me at the field. After the game, I got up and headed to my car. My friends wanted to get a head start back because they wanted to catch the AF concert and they had to go back to Subang. I followed them as it was nearly Maghrib and my curfew time was almost up. As I was walking towards my car with my friends, I stole a few glances towards him. He had changed his clothes and apart of me wanted to call out to him. But the ego part of me said not to. So I didn't call out to him.
As we were about to arrive at the place he was standing (there was a fence and an drain separating us), as if he sensed me there, he turned his head and caught me in one of my glances at him. I quickly avoided any eye contact with him but I felt bad by doing that. I then looked back at him and his face was quite hurt and he was taken aback by my action but he covered it up by smiling at me and I responsed by pointing at my friends and he nodded. I called out at my friends and they exchanged smiles and waves. He asked us to wait for him and on of my friend said that they wanted to hurry up and went on walking. Another friend chased us and stopped us before reaching our cars. We stopped for a while and then he caught up with us. He said hi and asked us out for drinks. But I was really heading back and my friends insisted that they had to get on their way to catch the AF concert. I didn't have any stregth to return his gaze.
My friends' car arrived since one of their friend who was just accompanying them to the match went to get their car. So, they were busy telling him that their car has arrived and they wanted to get on their way. I just did not say anything to him and went to salam my girlfriends before heading to my car.
As I drove back (and there is only one way out), I saw him standing at his car and looking at his friends who were still in the field laughing and talking with their friends. I just drove back home thinking of him and what went wrong. Was I being very egoistic and sensitive tak bertempat? But I knew that I had been hurt so much eventhough at times I know that he never meant to hurt my feelings. I just told myself to 'disappear' from his world. And I guess I did follow my heart and disappeared.
I arrived at home that evening and settled myself for the concert. I was trying to enjoy the concert but the thing was that I kept remembering my best friend and what I did at the field. I know that before this, we would sms each other after meeting one another anywhere. But that night I thought that I am not going to sms him or even appologize to him on my behaviour. See how egoistic a women can be? I was really listening to my ego. As I was staring blankly at the tv watching the AF consert, my handphone started beeping as an sms appeared. It turned out to be HIM. I was touched and a bit glad and happy. I replied but cut it short. Usually, I would reply lots of things and joke around with him. But my ego won. I just replied in brief and in an instant he replied back. I was suddenly in tears since I really miss talking to him and how bad I wanted to talk for hours with him and pour out all my problems. But I chose not to and stood still with my desicion.
I was really glad that he smsed me. It was like the ending of My Best Friend's Wedding when Julianne waited for Micheal to say goodbye and she saw that he had left for his honeymoon. But then Micheal tapped her shoulder as she was walking away from the crowd bidding her farewell before his honeymoon. That was really sweet and that was how I felt that night after receiving his sms.
We are still friends though. But I will just leave it to time to heal my wounds. And that's the difference with girlfriends. They will notice the change in you or your feelings because we are sensitive. Eventhough sometimes you are a bit secretive of personal things, but when your mood changes or you have been hurt, girlfriends will spot the difference in a second. Unlike boyfriends, it will just be small matter until you open up to them about how you feel.
This song has been lingering in my head since last concert and has been playing on my pc today and only this song, not the whole album. Maybe I am feeling like this song has something to do with what I am feeling now.
Tiada Lagi Tangisan
Kini telah lama kita berpisah
Rintihan asmara kian berubah
Tiada lagi mengharap
Tiada lagi belaian manjamu
Semua telah berakhir
Ketenangan hidup menyinariku
Keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
Tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduri
Aku mengenali siapakah diriku yang sebenarnya
Tiada lagi tangisan
Tiada lagi airmata
Membasahi jiwa luka
Yang tinggal hanya memori duka
Semuanya diduga
Pertemuan kali ini
Takkan berkekalan
Berakhirnya istana bahagia
Biarkanlah diriku keseorangan
Tak perlu lagi cinta yang menghiris luka
Titisan airmata kini kekeringan
Tak perlu menabur kasihmu
Ketenangan hidup menyinariku
Keperitan cinta terlerai sudah
Tabahkanlah hati luka nan berduri
Ku mengenali siapakah diriku yang sebenarnya
Dan kini tertutup jendela harapan ini
Kau yang menanti kepangkuan aku
Semua takdir yang telah ku temu
Akan ku rela segalanya tanpamu
I will just have to wait and see where my feelings will bring me. But one thing for sure, I really miss those times.
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
♥ People
I think I have recovered from my down-side syndrom. What happened that day really hit me hard on my face and I had to find a firm grip to stand straight and held my head up high instead of collapsing into tears in front of the people around me. I never thought that it happened that way. But luckily, I was able to remain cool and act as though it meant nothing to me.
I know some might ask what happened right? Well, what I can say is that something happened to me while I was 'best friends' with someone. I found out that my 'best friend' was cheating and all these while I never thought that that was the reason of the 'friendship' to fade away. Well, almost like that.
Now, I know that people change. But some of them might remain the same. For instance, my classmates in form 4 and form 5 whom I have not met and hung around with for nearly 10 years attended the reunion. We were best friends back then. And when I knew about the mega reunion, I asked them if they would like to join the reunion and in the end, we went to meet each other plus another friend from our batch. The four of us took the train to Perlis.
Arriving there, another classmate waited for us at the train station in Arau and we headed for breakfast. We then headed to the hotel and got ready for the event. Later that night, we had dinner and another classmate attended the dinner.
Actually, I just wanted to write about the people I knew from form 4 and how they have changed. There are people who are still like the way they were before. The same way I knew them and the same 'irritating' traits that I once was kecik hati with. But some has grown up to be matured and more 'quiet' compared to when we were in our schooldays.
And the best part is that some has grown up to be more handsome and more gentleman than he was in school. That guy really took our breaths away the first time we saw him. He has changed and his manners, wow... made us like drooling over him. Ha..ha..
During our days in school, he was a bit naughty in his own way and always in his own world with the other taikos (don't know how to spell this word actually)in school. He was a smart guy and he didn't have to study hard like us. And he always scored high in class despite of his behaviour. He really liked to mix with the gangsters and taikos in school. But that night, he really made us day dream of him nowadays. After the dinner that night, in our room (we actually had 2 separate rooms for the 4 of us, but since we have not met for a long time, we all just hung around my room) we were just talking about him and how he has changed. And the best part was that everyone even said to back-off to the others claiming that the guy is theirs. Ha..ha.. what do you expect to get in a girl's talk right? ;)
Well the main point is that people do change. But behind the new person, still lies the old person we once knew. The physical appearance will change and so will the inner side of a person. But deep down inside that 'new' person, the old friend we once knew is still inside there.
I know some might ask what happened right? Well, what I can say is that something happened to me while I was 'best friends' with someone. I found out that my 'best friend' was cheating and all these while I never thought that that was the reason of the 'friendship' to fade away. Well, almost like that.
Now, I know that people change. But some of them might remain the same. For instance, my classmates in form 4 and form 5 whom I have not met and hung around with for nearly 10 years attended the reunion. We were best friends back then. And when I knew about the mega reunion, I asked them if they would like to join the reunion and in the end, we went to meet each other plus another friend from our batch. The four of us took the train to Perlis.
Arriving there, another classmate waited for us at the train station in Arau and we headed for breakfast. We then headed to the hotel and got ready for the event. Later that night, we had dinner and another classmate attended the dinner.
Actually, I just wanted to write about the people I knew from form 4 and how they have changed. There are people who are still like the way they were before. The same way I knew them and the same 'irritating' traits that I once was kecik hati with. But some has grown up to be matured and more 'quiet' compared to when we were in our schooldays.
And the best part is that some has grown up to be more handsome and more gentleman than he was in school. That guy really took our breaths away the first time we saw him. He has changed and his manners, wow... made us like drooling over him. Ha..ha..
During our days in school, he was a bit naughty in his own way and always in his own world with the other taikos (don't know how to spell this word actually)in school. He was a smart guy and he didn't have to study hard like us. And he always scored high in class despite of his behaviour. He really liked to mix with the gangsters and taikos in school. But that night, he really made us day dream of him nowadays. After the dinner that night, in our room (we actually had 2 separate rooms for the 4 of us, but since we have not met for a long time, we all just hung around my room) we were just talking about him and how he has changed. And the best part was that everyone even said to back-off to the others claiming that the guy is theirs. Ha..ha.. what do you expect to get in a girl's talk right? ;)
Well the main point is that people do change. But behind the new person, still lies the old person we once knew. The physical appearance will change and so will the inner side of a person. But deep down inside that 'new' person, the old friend we once knew is still inside there.
Am i really never good enough for you?
2:02 PM
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Monday, June 20, 2005
♥ Mawi oh Mawi!!!!
Konsert Sabtu lepas memang seronok. Nak review semua - Not me.. Just a few performances - maybe the worst and the best.
The first performance, Marsya was like a 'strip tease' performance. Ha..ha.. those are my mother's exact words that night. She said that she was moving out of tune and more menggiurkan as Kudsia mentioned. The first time I heard her sing was in Trek Selebriti and the Prelude concert which they showed her audition clip. She has a wonderful voice but no power at all. Macam tak nak menyanyi je. Her performance that night was a bit dull. The song was a catchy song but it didn't feel anything to me. Well, some might say that I only watched the TV and was not in the live concert myself. But I don't think that it makes a difference with a performance like that. J, jangan marah ye... ;)
Another dull performance was Reza's performance. As the song Mungkin Nanti has been on my blog for months now, I felt like stranggling him for singing that song like he was bored to death. This song makes me feel fresh everytime I listen to it. But that night, I was furious and wanted to strangle somebody listening to his performance.
Amy's performance was a bit 'kelam kabut'. I found it a bit boring. I don't know why but she was trying so hard I guess. But I still like her guts and her effort.
Now, the best performances. I was really touched with Yazer's Suatu Masa. I am really a big fan of M. Nasir. And this song is one of my favourite. Yazer really did a superb job in making me feel the song. I was in tears after listening to his performance. That was just infront of my TV! I think if I was at the stadium, I would have a bucket of tears!
Another enjoyable performance was Kefli's. I just enjoyed the performance but the vocal part, he has a lot to improve.
Idayu's performance was superb. She really has a strong vocal and I really love her voise. One thing though, people might judge her through the diary episodes so, she has to do something to maybe change her attitude because she has this aura that makes her look like a bit 'snobbish' and stark-up.
And Mawi - he really made up for last week's performance. I can't believe it that he can put a very gatal + miang face. It was cute and he looked like he almost uses that face often. And the very best part is his criteria of gadis pilihan:
1. Bertudung ( okay, passed - I am included)
2. Memahami dirinya dan kerjaya ( okay - no hal)
3. Pandai mengurut (ha..ha.. memang pandai mengurut.. selalu jadi mesin ogawa kat opis... agaknya memang dah jodoh kot... he..he..)
Enough about AF3. Sebenarnya, siang hari Sabtu hari itu, I went to a kenduri kahwin di Perak. My officemate got married. The akad nikah was on the week I was on holiday in Terengganu. The bride is also my officemate and is my best friend. I was a bit disappointed because I couldn't attend her side. But she understood because I had plans that week and I couldn't cancel it. Anyway, I made it to the groom's kenduri - which is also a good friend. Rumah pengantin lelaki ini has been around for more than 100 years. Arwah ayahnya adalah penghulu kampung, so I think you guys can imagine the house kan? And another thing, memang suasana yang best sangat! Maybe for me kot. Sebab dilahirkan di KL dan dibesarkan di Bangi. Dapat suasana kampung macam ni memang thrilling. Not that my parents orang bandar juga, but kampung my mom kat Melaka pun dah masuk kawasan pekan. Dah banyak pembangunan. Takde rasa kampung sangat. My dad pulak jauh nun di Terengganu. Masa kecik, hanya once a year je balik. And duduk pun 2-3 hari je sebab pakcik-pakcik and makcik-makcik di serata Terengganu. But I really miss the house in Jerteh. Tangga besar-besar and bau rumah wangi sebab banyak pokok kenanga kat laman rumah. So, bila tengok rumah pengantin lelaki yang memang antik, hati seronok sangat! Macam tak nak balik je. Maybe sebab itu selalu orang cakap yang I have to find a guy from kampung to experience this feeling. Itu yg macam dah gatal sikit nak mencari orang kampung ni. Mesti best and ayu pakai kain batik duduk kat beranda rumah depan pintu pukul 5 petang sambil minum kopi panas sambil tengok anak-anak main kat laman rumah atuk dan nenek diorang kan?? Wahh... berangan nampaknya. But memang best kalau macam tu for a person like me. Lagi-lagi kalau ada sungai yang macam zaman dulu bersih dan airnya sejuk. Memang best!
Enough pasal angan-angan tu. Nanti kalau dah terlalu jauh, payah nak balik ke alam realiti. Selamat Pengantin Baru to CT and Din. Moga kekal bahagia
The first performance, Marsya was like a 'strip tease' performance. Ha..ha.. those are my mother's exact words that night. She said that she was moving out of tune and more menggiurkan as Kudsia mentioned. The first time I heard her sing was in Trek Selebriti and the Prelude concert which they showed her audition clip. She has a wonderful voice but no power at all. Macam tak nak menyanyi je. Her performance that night was a bit dull. The song was a catchy song but it didn't feel anything to me. Well, some might say that I only watched the TV and was not in the live concert myself. But I don't think that it makes a difference with a performance like that. J, jangan marah ye... ;)
Another dull performance was Reza's performance. As the song Mungkin Nanti has been on my blog for months now, I felt like stranggling him for singing that song like he was bored to death. This song makes me feel fresh everytime I listen to it. But that night, I was furious and wanted to strangle somebody listening to his performance.
Amy's performance was a bit 'kelam kabut'. I found it a bit boring. I don't know why but she was trying so hard I guess. But I still like her guts and her effort.
Now, the best performances. I was really touched with Yazer's Suatu Masa. I am really a big fan of M. Nasir. And this song is one of my favourite. Yazer really did a superb job in making me feel the song. I was in tears after listening to his performance. That was just infront of my TV! I think if I was at the stadium, I would have a bucket of tears!
Another enjoyable performance was Kefli's. I just enjoyed the performance but the vocal part, he has a lot to improve.
Idayu's performance was superb. She really has a strong vocal and I really love her voise. One thing though, people might judge her through the diary episodes so, she has to do something to maybe change her attitude because she has this aura that makes her look like a bit 'snobbish' and stark-up.
And Mawi - he really made up for last week's performance. I can't believe it that he can put a very gatal + miang face. It was cute and he looked like he almost uses that face often. And the very best part is his criteria of gadis pilihan:
1. Bertudung ( okay, passed - I am included)
2. Memahami dirinya dan kerjaya ( okay - no hal)
3. Pandai mengurut (ha..ha.. memang pandai mengurut.. selalu jadi mesin ogawa kat opis... agaknya memang dah jodoh kot... he..he..)
Enough about AF3. Sebenarnya, siang hari Sabtu hari itu, I went to a kenduri kahwin di Perak. My officemate got married. The akad nikah was on the week I was on holiday in Terengganu. The bride is also my officemate and is my best friend. I was a bit disappointed because I couldn't attend her side. But she understood because I had plans that week and I couldn't cancel it. Anyway, I made it to the groom's kenduri - which is also a good friend. Rumah pengantin lelaki ini has been around for more than 100 years. Arwah ayahnya adalah penghulu kampung, so I think you guys can imagine the house kan? And another thing, memang suasana yang best sangat! Maybe for me kot. Sebab dilahirkan di KL dan dibesarkan di Bangi. Dapat suasana kampung macam ni memang thrilling. Not that my parents orang bandar juga, but kampung my mom kat Melaka pun dah masuk kawasan pekan. Dah banyak pembangunan. Takde rasa kampung sangat. My dad pulak jauh nun di Terengganu. Masa kecik, hanya once a year je balik. And duduk pun 2-3 hari je sebab pakcik-pakcik and makcik-makcik di serata Terengganu. But I really miss the house in Jerteh. Tangga besar-besar and bau rumah wangi sebab banyak pokok kenanga kat laman rumah. So, bila tengok rumah pengantin lelaki yang memang antik, hati seronok sangat! Macam tak nak balik je. Maybe sebab itu selalu orang cakap yang I have to find a guy from kampung to experience this feeling. Itu yg macam dah gatal sikit nak mencari orang kampung ni. Mesti best and ayu pakai kain batik duduk kat beranda rumah depan pintu pukul 5 petang sambil minum kopi panas sambil tengok anak-anak main kat laman rumah atuk dan nenek diorang kan?? Wahh... berangan nampaknya. But memang best kalau macam tu for a person like me. Lagi-lagi kalau ada sungai yang macam zaman dulu bersih dan airnya sejuk. Memang best!
Enough pasal angan-angan tu. Nanti kalau dah terlalu jauh, payah nak balik ke alam realiti. Selamat Pengantin Baru to CT and Din. Moga kekal bahagia
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Friday, June 17, 2005
♥ I am back.... exhausted.
As predicted before my leave, I was not shocked to see tonnes of urgent tasks to be settled on my desk last Monday morning. I was a bit disappointed because I even sacrificed my weekends before my leave to finish the big urgent matters but even that, as I walked in my 'room', I saw that nothing has been done and all of the things I prepared to be sent to the publishers were dumped on my cleared desk that I left before my long break. And I was like a mad woman running around the office getting things done for today's event.
And right now, I am truly exhausted from all the running around making sure that things are in order. Eventhough that I am exhausted, I felt relieved that everything went as planned although there were some minor things here and there as they would point out, but the main thing was that the event was a success.
As for now, I am back as usual. Not getting enough of the Akademi Fantasia diaries aired everyday because of the workload, but the best is that I have my own 'tv' from Javard and Y - my two favourite past time reading materials on the net. :) . For the next concert tomorrow, I am looking forward to Aidil's performance and Mawi's as well. This week, I think Aidil was given a song that suited his voice. For Mawi, I don't know but I knew that he has this x-factor in his voice and the way he sings because I just can't forget him from the prelude concert. And another thing, he looked 'sexy' in his kain pelikat last night (I know that I mentioned that I seldomly watch the AF diaries, but last night while I was ironing my work clothes, I got the chance to watch the repeat at 11.30 pm).
Enjoy your weekend and enjoy the AF concert tomorrow. Don't miss it coz you'll regret it. He..he..
And right now, I am truly exhausted from all the running around making sure that things are in order. Eventhough that I am exhausted, I felt relieved that everything went as planned although there were some minor things here and there as they would point out, but the main thing was that the event was a success.
As for now, I am back as usual. Not getting enough of the Akademi Fantasia diaries aired everyday because of the workload, but the best is that I have my own 'tv' from Javard and Y - my two favourite past time reading materials on the net. :) . For the next concert tomorrow, I am looking forward to Aidil's performance and Mawi's as well. This week, I think Aidil was given a song that suited his voice. For Mawi, I don't know but I knew that he has this x-factor in his voice and the way he sings because I just can't forget him from the prelude concert. And another thing, he looked 'sexy' in his kain pelikat last night (I know that I mentioned that I seldomly watch the AF diaries, but last night while I was ironing my work clothes, I got the chance to watch the repeat at 11.30 pm).
Enjoy your weekend and enjoy the AF concert tomorrow. Don't miss it coz you'll regret it. He..he..
Am i really never good enough for you?
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
♥ At last...
I will not be updating this blog throughout next week. I have been looking forward to this long break from work. But during these last few days, my work load has increased drastically. As if they do not want me to relax for my planned leave.
I will be on leave for the whole week next week. I am really looking forward to enjoy myself which I hope I will because through previous experiences, I doubt it that I will enjoy my holidays with workload awaiting on my desk. But I do not give a damn during the leave. Everyone is entitled for a break once in a while right?
* No wonder I don't have a special. I am always into work..work..and more work.. he..he.. (what a lame excuse... ;-) )
I will be on leave for the whole week next week. I am really looking forward to enjoy myself which I hope I will because through previous experiences, I doubt it that I will enjoy my holidays with workload awaiting on my desk. But I do not give a damn during the leave. Everyone is entitled for a break once in a while right?
* No wonder I don't have a special. I am always into work..work..and more work.. he..he.. (what a lame excuse... ;-) )
Am i really never good enough for you?
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