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Saturday, October 30, 2004

♥ The First Daughter

Tajuk macam pelik skit kan?? Well, I am the first daughter in the family. Tapi bukan pasal ini yang nak dicerita. But ini pasal citer The First Daughter. Lakonan Katie Holmes. Citer yang simple but ada kebenarannya. Bukan pasal jadi first daughter tu. By the way, first daughter tu adalah anak kepada presiden.

Kadangkala kita pun terjebak di dalam dilema yang dihadapi. This story is more to being the only daughter and the first daughter. So, agak sukar untuk bergerak bebas tanpa ejen ikut. Kalau di Malaysia ni ibarat anak PM la. But I don't think that anak PM dapat layanan sebegini. This story comes around during the election season. So, pendek kata, anaknya terkongkong and sebenarnya dapat masuk kolej. Dia belajar untuk berdikari but it's painful. Maklumlah, tak semua suka dan setuju dengan tindakan pemimpin negara. Lebih-lebih lagi di kampus. Kampus di Malaysia pun ada mainan politiknya. Apatah lagi di sana.

Anyway, back to the story. Dalam masa di kolej pun masih ada ejen yang mengekori with uniforms. Argghhh betapa tak selesanya. But the she met a guy she likes. Kira cinta pun berputik dan guy ni tolong Sam (the first daughter's name) menjadi diri sendiri dan keluar bebas. And she really liked him (vice-versa). And kerana nak balas jasa Mamat ni (can't remember his real name, but in the story he was James), dia pun adakan treat untuk bawa James and Mia (roommate) ke one of her dad's election party in Air Force One.

To make it short, James berkenalan dengan parents Sam and they danced. On the way back, one limousine crashed the car that Sam was supposed to ride with James and ada people with guns. James and the bodyguards bawa Sam lari ikut jalan belakang. And the bodyguards walkie-talkied to the other bodyguards tempat lain yang 'lucky charm' which is Sam ada di jalan rahsia. And a car is sent to fetch Sam. Sampai di sana, the guards were asked to report Sam's status. And guess what?? James reported yang 'lucky charm is safe'. It came out like a blow to Sam thinking that James was some guy who has a crush on her and vice versa, but in reality, he is one of her father's men. She was totally stunned and speechless. She arrived at the white house and asked her father was she the only one that didn't know about James. Hmmmm...

She went back (to college) and acted as nothing happened. James dah jadi ejen with proper clothing (before this, he was an undercover agent) but acted as nothing touched his heart. Sam was a bit hurt and did everything to make hime jealous. But to no avail, James was still like other agents. She felt betrayed and did a table top dance which ended up as a bad reputation for the election. Her father was furious. And her mother asked her in an indirect way to leave the college first. (kiranya kena sacrifice la) But It was more of a command to me. And she did. Well, I won't tell the story till the end. But biarlah setakat sini saje. What I would like to share here is that sometimes we make sacrifices eventhough we are the ones that get hurt. Ini bukannya pasal family yang suruh. But other people. I've learnt the hard way. I always put friends, my loved ones before myself. Tapi apa yang terjadi?? Bila dah 'putus'relationship, diri sendiri yang merana. Memang kononnya nak please orang, but diri sendiri yang merana.

Now, I bear in mind that kalau nak sacrifice, make sure that I wont get hurt by the sacrifice I make.

p/s: kalau keluar cerita The First Daughter kat wayang, I'll make sure to watch it at the cinema.

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Thursday, October 28, 2004

♥ Cobalah untuk setia....

Lagu Kris Dayanti yang baru ni memang best melodinya. Saya suk sangat sebab very easy listening. But the lyrics pun best.. mengharapkan kesetiaan. Emmm.. bawah ni lirik dia...

Cobalah untuk setia
Krisdayanti

Apalah maumu kasih
Kau pilih diriku
Di dalam hidupmu
Nyatanya ku lihat kini
Tak bisa kau coba untuk setia

Sudah cukuplah sudah
Ku memberikan waktu
Kau selalu tak bisa
Mencoba untuk setia

Reff:
Yang selalu kuinginkan
Yang selalu kunanti
Kau coba untuk mengerti
Apalah arti mencinta

Dan harus kau sadari
Bila ingin bersamaku
Jangan coba kau ingkari
Cobalah untuk setia..

Masihkah aku diinginkan
Masihkah aku di dambakan
Masih ada waktu untukmu
Bersamamu akan kah ku jalani hidup...

lagu yang sungguh mengasyikkan.. tetapi kadangkala terfikir, adakah berbaloi menanti sehingga dia setia??

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Thursday, October 21, 2004

♥ Single vs married....

Seems weird kan entry tu? But I got the idea this morning. Tengah dengar station radio Era and then the deejays came across this topic. Hemmmm.. macam terkena je kat batang hidung ni. Not that I'm that old or anything, but sometimes terdetik gak di hati 'bila la aku nak kawin ni??' But tak pernah jumpa jawapannya.

My friends kebanyakannya dah pun settle down. I mean my close friends. My roommates masa belajar dah pun ada anak. Ada yang dah 2 orang anak!! Me - still single. Nak kata berusia sangat tu, takdela. Mid twenties. Kira still young. But the deejay interviewed some callers. Ada yang kata lebih senang untuk stay single. Maklumlah, belum ada tanggungjawab lagi. And ada yang kata memang seronok kawin ni. Siapa yang tak seronok? You're excersising one of the Sunnahs. And you have a family to come back to. Ada saje yang menunggu. Penat seharian hilang bila melihat muka suami atau isteri dan anak-anak. Lagi-lagi melayani karenah anak-anak. Memang menyeronokkan. You have a good friend to pour out all you problems, a shoulder to cry on and a friend to share your success. Memang tak dinafikan, berkahwin ini seronok. But kalau belum sampai seru, we can't force it kan? sebab nanti tak gembira, malah merana hidup kita.

So, back to the question... single or married?? I'd prefer to settle down sometime. Bila dah menjelma hari tua kita, takkan nak bergantung pada kawan-kawan lain. They all pun ada family masing-masing, tanggungjawab masing-masing dan takkan hanya nak berseronok dengan kita yang masih membujang. But it doesn't mean that I'll get what I wish for. Sebab jodoh pertemuan, ajal, maut di tangan Yang Maha Mengetahui. Tapi kita still kena berusaha. I've seen mariages yang hancur kerana masing-masing masih belum puas menikmati usia muda. Masa belajar, hanya ingat dia sahaja yang cantik dan menjadi idaman hati. Masa itula yang silapnya. Kerana diri belum keluar ke dunia sebenar. Kita akan jumpa yang lain. Dan mungkin pada ketika itu, cinta pada si dia telah pudar. Itulah yang terjadi pada kawan saya sendiri. Kesian, dalam usia muda ini, status telah bertukar sebanyak 2 kali. Dan lebih memedihkan, sudah ada anak. Dan ibunya tidak dibenarkan menjaga dan membela anaknya.

Jadi rasanya bukan status single vs married yang perlu difikirkan, tetapi masa yang sesuai dan kesediaan diri sendiri untuk memikul tanggungjawab. Fikirkanlah dan renungkanlah.

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

♥ Arrrggghhhhhh....

Today for me is really exhausting. I really had to do things that were urgently needed to be settled. Nak dapatkan ISO ni bukannya perkara mudah. People in my department ni memang susah sikit kalau bab-bab kerja lebih. But nothing much yang dikehendaki. All the documents memang dah prepared. Cuma nak minta kemaskini segala fail dan dokumen. Muka dah memuncung. Siap tengking lagi. Hai... nasib baikla ini bulan Ramadhan. Kalau tidak, memang melentinglah tadi.

But maybe memang jenis yang malas nak bising-bisng. So, bila orang buat macam tu, I'll just keep quiet. Lantaklah nak kata apa ke, asalkan bahagia dah. And sometimes, that person will tegur balik. Dah malu la tu.. he..he.. so.. got to go back... dah lambat dah

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Friday, October 15, 2004

♥ Puasa Hari Pertama

Why choose that title?? well.. sempena hari ini first Ramadhan, teringin nak cerita pasal zaman masa mula-mula puasa dulu.

Kiranya masa mula-mula puasa dulu, umur masa tu baru 7 yrs old.. and masa tu di luar negara coz ikut father sambung studies.. nak dijadikan cerita, dahle masa tu summer... kalau summer, masa siang lebih panjang dari malam... dan memangle penuh dengan dugaan, dugaan zina mata, kawan-kawan lain makan aiskrim... nak mandi aje.. macam-macamle... tak tertahan dibuatnya.. dahle masa tu dah masuk kindergarden.. pegi sekolah... masa lunch semua kena ke cafeteria... arrrggghhh dugaan sungguh bagiku... masa tu kecik lagi... tapi azam nak puasa penuh tu.. maklumla.. ayah suruh.. kira I'm daddy's girl la jugak.. the only daughter in the family.. yang lain semuanya lelaki (2 boys)..

My father made it a bit simpler dengan minta kebenaran principal utk kecualikan dari pegi cafeteria untuk lunch hour... and my principal setuju... but dia kata kena duduk tempat lain selain kelas... and I ended up in the library during lunch time... I read during the lunch hour and helped a bit around the library... and at last, got a certificate sebab bantu they all...

Itulah mula-mula puasa dulu... memang best... sebab masa tu kecik lagi, and masih berlatih kata orang.. but I took it seriously... and got 'rewards' sebab berjaya puasa penuh sebulan..

Actually it's not the rewards that matters... kalau kita tak berlatih dari kecil atau alasan anak terlalu kecil nak puasa, at least have them try bit by bit... mula-mula, puasa 4 jam ke.. pastu tingkatkan skit ke setengah hari... and then puasa sehari... because this way, akan jadi biasa.. bak kata karam singh walia - alah bisa, tegal biasa.. sorry man.. used your name in my blog.. but you are recognized to use all the malay sayings, proverbs etc kalau buat laporan.. he..he..

okay, back to my point.. anak-anak kena dilatih dari kecil.. biarla dah biasa berpuasa.. tak nakla bila besar, tak puasa... and the best part, minta maid yg berpuasa sediakan breakfast and lunch!!! how horrible... sape nak disalahkan???

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Thursday, October 14, 2004

♥ Ramadhan Al-Mubarak tiba lagi.. Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah.. masih panjang umur untuk bertemu dengan bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak yang penuh dengan keberkatan. Setiap tahun diminta agar umur dipanjangkan moga dapat bersua dengan bulan yang penuh keberkatan ini. Dan Alhamdulillah, dimakbulkan sekali lagi.

Malam ni start terawikh (Insya-Allah kalau jadi esok puasa.. but menurut Falak, memang jadi walau anak bulan tak kelihatan). Teringat zaman masa sekolah-sekolah dulu. Masa ni berebut nak duduk saf depan. Dan yang paling best, lepas terawikh ada moreh. He..he.. Rasanya hampir semua tahu moreh tu apa kan? It's more like supper la. Memang best. Dan masa ni la kaki ponteng terawikh minta tapau moreh. He.. he.. lawak le ingatkan kenangan dulu.

Anyway, moga kita sama-sama merebut peluang untuk meningkatkan amalan kita di bulan yang mulia ini dan mendapat ganjaran berlipat ganda.

*sorry... nak balik cepat sebab nak buat persediaan nak sambut kedatangan Ramadhan... baru balik dari taklimat..

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Monday, October 11, 2004

♥ And Our Malaysian Idol Is.... Jaclyn Victor!!!!


jac-winner---300, originally uploaded by attiesya.

Malam Ahad yang lepas telah menjadi sejarah buat Malaysia. Malaysia telah melahirkan sebutir bintang untuk diketengahkan di World Idol di London.

Jac telah berjaya menewaskan Dina pada malam tersebut. Bukan satu keputusan di luar jangkaan, but telah dijangkakan selepas melihat performance Jac dan Dina pada malam Sabtu.

Dina muncul dengan lagu Gemilang pada awal rancangan. Memang ternyata baik. Tapi masih belum cukup memukau penonton. Dalam hati berkata, takpe. This is her first song. Maybe she's nervous. Jac came out with Tunggu Sekejap. I liked her way of singing this particular song but there was something yg tak suka. Her way of singing this part... tunggu sekejap... wahai teman.. kerana hujan masih renya.. renya?? what is that?? sepatutnya renyai. But apart from that, it was spectacular!

Second round - Dina nyanyi lagu Jelingan Manja. Why oh why Dina?? That came to my head when I first saw her with that outfit. Rasanya Dina sendiri tidak selesa. And it showed. Lagunya mendatar sahaja. Bak kata Ramli MS, mendatar..mendatar..mendatar.. he..he.. Jac pula nyanyikan lagu When I Fall in Love. Wow.. this girl is superb. Mungkin kerana pengalaman menyanyinya menyebabkan control, dynamics and pitching terkawal dengan baiknya. This round really made me feel that Jac will be crowned as the first Malaysian Idol.

Round 3 - Dina came out with may favourite song. I really liked her singing this song dalam round awal. But tonight, nothing touched my heart. Rasa macam kurang ummpphh(ikut iklan Boh Tea). Hit'em up Style yang Dina bawa malam ni kurang perencah. Rasa macam geram pun ada, because I really felt that she could be the first Malaysian Idol. Well, at least this was her try. Jac came out stunningly with Gemilang. btw, Gemilang was composed for the winner of this contest. So, it's a new song. Masa dengar Dina nyanyi, dah kata cukup hebat, but when Jac sang, it was REALLY I mean REALLY superb. Memang dah confirm she'll be the first to represent Malaysia to the World Idol!!

Well, results dah tahu pun on that night. But before it was announced, all the ten finalists nyanyi a song. I liked Zamil's and Vic's singing. Memang superb. Espescially Vic. Oh my God!! He was totally superb. And Dina and Jac also sang 3 songs. This time I saw that Dina out shined Jac. And how I wished it was last night's performance. Tapi bukan. Emmm.. I really tak gemar, kind of dislike the tongue thingy of Jac's. Tak sesuweiii beb. Macam mana makan ek??

Well... we've seen it all.. And Jac, congratulations... you'll make Malaysia stand proud in the World Idol.

* picture taken from http://www.malaysianidol.com.my

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Saturday, October 09, 2004

♥ Malaysian Idol - Dina vs Jac


jac_dina, originally uploaded by attiesya.

taken from www.kreees.com/idol
Last nite we all watched these two contestants show their talent. I was a bit disappointed with Dina's performance. Macam tak all out. And a bit mendatar. Only when she sang gemilang yang okay skit. Jac was superb. Well , we'll just have to wait for tonight to know who our first Malaysian Idol is.
* Dah taip panjang-panjang and commented every performace, hilang pulak. Tak sempat buat back-up and kepala dah penat nak mengarang balik. So, ringkas jela...

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♥ Huyaaaaaayyyyyyyy

Syukur alhamdulillah, blog ni dah pun dapat online... actually dari semalam cuba post... but ada error lak... nak buat cam ne.. takde rezeki la tu...

I have been writing in diaries since school days... (terasa lak cam tua kan??) but, no... he..he.. (tak nak ngaku le pulak)... anyway, this is just a continuation of my diary entry.. cuma yg ni lebih luas and other people can access.. well.. never mind... through this, we can give our point of views kan??

Well... I'm a bit exhausted today... baru je abis mengaudit for ISO... and then my office takde water supply.. memang parah le... I'd rather live without electricity than water... takde air, susah mau buat bisnes kecil ke besar ke... and the worst part is nak ambik wudhu'... memang payah... I guess sometimes people give this reason for not performing the solah... haii... apa nak jadi dengan dunia ini... mudah ambil enteng dengan bab-bab ibadah ni.. well.. this is for me too... don't take things for granted.. especially bab-bab menunjukkan rasa syukur pada Yang Maha Esa...

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